Legacy

I'm curious on what my legacy would be. The New Year brings reflecting and thinking of legacy.  I hope it would be a positive one. I'd like to think people have been impacted in a good way by knowing me. Makes you think. I guess I have my own "George Bailey" moments.  My support system is a good reminder that I've done well. Something to think about.

Respect

That is something earned. You work for it. You make good impressions. You work up a reputation.  It can be as good as gold. It's invaluable. 

Buttons

Interesting conversation on Facebook got me thinking of annoying phrases and buttons to push.  Something about our human desire to like pushing the envelope or see how far things can go. I guess to gauge things? Makes for quite a colorful discussion. We don't always act on the buttons.  We even moderate our behavior according to these buttons.  But these buttons. ..sometimes even triggers have an interesting way to sneak in. It's a matter of how to react. And how much to let in. It's about knowing that boundaries and buttons and triggers and pushing envelopes helps to learn about one another.

Living for those moments

You live for those moments that melt your heart. That stop you in your tracks. That make you feel fuzzy. Or put a smile on your face....or make you laugh.  Sometimes. ..even make you cry.  I cherish them. They happen daily.  It's about being open and willing to see the big moments in little things. To see how big moments come from little moments that flow continuously.

Family

Won't blog much. Beyond happy.  I have my love and my lovies.  Just hanging out. Such a simple thing. But so significant.  Memories....

My heart is melting

The simplicity of this day. Baking...talking...laughing.  I made Mexican cinnamon tea. I won't forget this day. I will tuck it away.  This day has melted my heart.

How they've grown

I look at both of them and just smile. 7 years I've been a constant in their life. I'm an advisor.  It feels amazing.  I feel needed. Step parenting is not an easy role. And sometimes people might not see you as a "true" parent. That doesn't matter.  What matters is them. That I've watched them evolve into these independent, creative,  and intelligent individuals. ...and I had a hand in that. My influence is subtle and purposeful. And it will get more beautiful to watch.

Friendship from love

I love being married to my best friend. Whatever we do...however we are hanging out we make boring things fun. I'm so lucky to be married to him. He's beyond lucky! lol Love is awesome.

Boosting my confidence

I got a 97 on my test!  I'm proud of myself.    I haven't always test well in life. So it's a big deal how well I'm retaining the information.  The school shot a commercial.  Unless they seriously edit...I will be in it! Something different in a day. I also got some feedback from John, my instructor that boosted my confidence.  And I put my partner to sleep.  I always take that as a good thing.

So busy I missed

With Leticia and study group.  Then on my own studying I completely forgot.  Oh well. It happens.

Good day again

I put my partner to sleep. That felt good. I really feel happy doing this. It's therapeutic.  Every class is closer. 
Every class gets me closer to my dreams. 

My life

It has drastically changed.  I love being busy. I feel purpose.  I feel happy.  I have school.  Which takes up a lot of my schedule.  Then there is Zumba,Yoga, and swimming. Then , Leticia.  And somewhere I see a friend or two. Oooh and my shows. Busy Busy. I love it.

I almost forgot to blog.

Been a busy day. Dr's appointment,  library,  bank, and putting gas. Then some shopping.  Dinner...which was yummy.  I baked for the first time. That was an adventure.  Then yoga. Finally,  some studying.  I'm tired.

A good day.

After the day on Tuesday I was a little nervous about Today. My friend ( and classmate) Kaitlyn put me at ease. I did great according to her. I have to work on my transition.  It's like I overthink it. Susan says...which I like " When in doubt,  rake it out". Love it. I gave same amount of pressure.  She made me twitch.  She's a natural. So good day...it was... ( my yoda moment) Now....for Zumba!

My version of moving art

It's fun and interesting to see how couples communicate with each. Each couple that's in my near near circle communicates differently. This could be upbringing,  personal experiences, or any different type of variables.  But I love the language they speak. Their own language.  It's neither wrong or right because I'm not fluent. I'm not any part of the language.  And is what I love...observing. ...observing the different ways to say...I love you...I'm thinking of you....you mean so much to me...you're important in my life. And if you think about. ..sometimes this dance can translate and give similar but different moves for friendship. It's like friendship cues. I love watching life unfold. I love watching moving art....life that unfolds and creates experiences. Moving art....that ruly moves you.

Positive feedback

It helps you gauge a situation.  It helps you identify or clarify things without drama. Positive feedback or even conatructive criticism helps you improve.  If the person telling you has good intentions. ...and if you're open to improving. .the experience can be helpful and even gratifying.  The feedback is genuine.  The feedback is meant for sincere intention.  You can still tell a person about their flaws but you also give suggestion on making it better.  You contribute to the solution.  And always remember. ...feedback is an opinion. In the end you decide going forward how to proceed.  Just my take.

Keep on Keeping on

I was having a blank on inspiration.  And that's what my classmate came up with. You have trials.  You have difficulties.  You give yourself time to deal w it. That's healthy.  And then you pick yourself up. You keep on keeping on. That's how people separate themselves. My take. Noone is devoid of this situation.  People just don't usually talk about.  They keep on keeping on.

Happiness

It's beautiful conversations w friends.  It's feeling accomplished. It's catching up with friends.  It's making a difference.  It's making memories.  It's being in love w your best friend. .. and you're married to him! Happiness is living the dream.

Test day and Ashley's birthday

I got a 98! So happy.  Also...Ashley turns 12! Sighs. They grow up so fast.  It's been quite a day. I was nervous about the test but I realized I knew my stuff. In fact, the one thing I missed was a duh moment. It happens!

Adventures of Jess

Some days I don't have sn inspiration or any one thought that pops out to be written about.  It was nice to sleep in a few hours. Course...power napping is awesome. ...in class. When you're on the receiving end of a massage that power nap does wonders. The day is calling.  Time for some yoga.

Nice groove

Now that I'm more established in my routine I feel a certain groove.  Tuesday and Thursday are my busiest days.I've learned so much in the past couple of days. I take notes like crazy. I'm still the note queen. There calls for some more studting tonight.  The review helped to know what will be on the test.  Anyways,  it's been great. Zumba is soon. Something different. The intersection where I turn left...there was an accident.  I hope everyone is ok.

Negative energy

This weekend had snippets of it. Normally,  I can brush it off. This weekend. .not so much.  First...a friend had a foot in mouth moment.  Those are fun. Misunderstanding but got me somewhat perturbed.  Then dealing w the defensive driving. Then a friend of a friend went off on FB. That was the least of the negative but since I was among the people she was complaining about it was still a negative feeling.  Fortunately,  she unfriended me. I didn't sleep well. Just a grumble grumble so to speak.  So here's me leaving that behind to focus. School is important to me. Noone ever said going after your dreams was easy. Let's do this!