My groove

I love that I'm finding my groove.  Mr. Shasta from Laura Sullivan is on.  I worked both jobs, today.  First the caregiver position.  Then, the coordinator position.  I put on my music and I work.  I love it.  I decorated my desk with a mouse pad Jeremy got me at PAX.  I have my unicorn stress ball and my name plate that my friends got me for my birthday.  I have a system, now.  Today was about organizing.  I check email at the beginning and end of my shift.  I make phone calls.  If I need to print out more processing packages, I do that.  Which is what I was doing, today.  Then, I got an assessment.  After I worked out.  I did body combat and treadmill.  I'm about to heat up some leftovers and watch a movie, maybe.  I'll be talking to Jeremy, soon on video chat.  Life is good.  I'm finding my groove.  Working out is really helping my mental health. 

Some pictures

birthday picture

THIS.... sighs

I came home to these

The concept was Frozen

My boss is amazing

 Something spoke to me about this

Sometimes, you have to look someone, straight in the eye, and say ...Thank you.

Thank you

What a weekend

I'll be upfront.  I wasn't looking forward to my 42nd birthday.   But as it was leading up to my birthday, things happened.  Photography changed me life.  I got a promotion at work.  Jeremy and I were in sync like scary crazy good.  By the time my birthday rolled around, I was ready.  After all, my friends kept pointing out...42 is the answer! (Movie thing lol)
In the end, it taught me that it's a number.  I hear that constantly.  But somewhere, somehow, I finally listened...on a spiritual level.  I keep talking about this peace inside.  It's a warm feeling of calm.  I have bouts of panicky or nervousness.  I have to talk myself off that panic level from time to time.  I'm not completely cured of all trauma.  But I am certainly not the broken woman I remember.  I don't recognize myself....and yet, I do.  She's been there all along, waiting to be seen.  She was waiting to really be seen. Every day is an opportunity to learn and grow.  I enjoy the growth I feel.  I enjoy pursing my happiness.  That turned into my life's purpose.  The pursuit of happiness and peace.  It comes in different forms.  It has different times.  But it all pieces together to bring peace in my life.  As I remember Dorothy from Wizard of OZ being told by the Good Witch..."You had the power all along"....so do I, remember...

I had the power...all along.

Thank you, again, my quiet spaces, for taking the time to read my thoughts.  It is never lost on me. 

Busy Busy Busy

With my new schedule, I haven't had time to blog.  I barely have had time to write in my journal.  I'm tired.  But it's such a good tired.  I wanted to go swimming but I was exhausted.  Luckily, going to PAX meant lots of steps, so it helped to not feel guilty about not working out as much, this week.  My birthday is in a couple of days. I have so not been about turning 42.  However, ever since this photography adventure has happened, it's taken a new turn.  It's quiet but still nonetheless, exciting.  I'm still not looking forward to 42.  But now, it also comes with happiness. 

Schedule

I have a busier schedule, now! I love it.  I just wanted to write in my blog.  I've been able to do the reflections journal more consistently.  I'm so happy.  I'm still keeping up with the 365 challenge. 
Life is good. 

Tomorrow

Am I really here? It feels so surreal. I feel a feeling of arrived, emotionally.  That somewhere, inside, I don't have that chaos.  That this peace I get to feel is consistent.  It's been consistent.  And with the new promotion, I feel like the universe was saying that I was ready to take on more.  I felt like the Universe understood I am at a better place with my confidence. 

Firsts

Today was a first.  I don't know if I have been up to see a sunrise.  It was an experience.  I am really enjoying this 365 Photography challenge.  I feel so healthy.  Does that sound like a weird thing to say? I feel more at peace.  I choose ways to maintain that peace.  Granted, life throws curve balls.  However, I am learning and choosing how I interact with my life.  Rather than just react and play a sideline spectator role in my life, I actively choose the narrative.  It feels good.

 Day 12-Sunrise

While chasing the sunrise, I found fog

Living the dream

Cafe vibes

I love working on my photography! I have cafe vibes going here.  Melody Gardot Radio on Pandora is on and I'm getting introduced to an array of artists.  It's great photography vibes.  Stairs is the subject, tomorrow.  That did stump me but I found a picture I could live with.  I actually had a better picture on my phone which I plan to share as well.  It's important to share my photography journey and evolution process.  However, I prefer not to use my phone.  The whole point is improve on my camera skills.  I feel purpose with my passion.  I feel purpose with photography.  I don't know if I have ever felt so passionate about something, like I do with my photography journey.  It's an amazing experience.  It's a beautiful learning process. 

Photography fun