Drama

I used to have a lot of it in my life. I had what I thought were friends and allowed myself not to see there was no benefit to them. Am I still around drama? To a point. But I have learned. ..a friend having drama...is simply a friend having drama. Some people look for drama. Some simply are not able to see signs that drama is on it's way. Some just have pkain dumb luck about drama. I was thinking about all this as I listened to a friend describea person antagonizing them. Do these people who antagonize other people feed off that drama. Do they like harassing? What is it, really? Something to think about.

Family

So I was sort of having a writer's block on what to write about.  And there it was.in front of me.  I asked the kids and Ashley just came up with it.  So...now that I am listening to some great music I feel inspired. Let us talk about family.  Family is so important.  The support system that is your family can shape your days sometimes.  I don't know about you but I have needed to lean on mine at times.  Between my condition...or simply the toxicity of certain people in my life...I have had to seek advice or simply validation of things regarding my personality, my decision making...or simply to have a second opinion.  Family doesn't always form from blood relations....although it is beautiful when you do have a mother, sister, brother, father...etc to be able to confide in.  No...sometimes family is in the friendships one has formed.  The bonds that I have created with my family helps to me reaffirm things in my life.  I don't feel lost.....I have direction...once again.  And talks with family is a good feeling.  I had one the other day with Ashley.  I just had one with Thomas. Just talking.  Being a mom is crazy and a wonderful feeling.  I can't wait to see where this journey takes us....Family....what a beautiful word.

There are Tuesdays with Morrie...I've got Thursdays with Leticia

It is Thursdays. Which means it's visiting Leticia time. I have been calling her "Laura" because we started out in a an Elder Friends program. It's coming up on a year now.   Now that we are no longer in the program I don't see any reason to hide her identity. She moved.  After 40 years she moved.  I can't even imagine what that feels like.  However, I really think this move is good.  She moved into am independent senior living apartment complex.  It's a great community setting while still allowing for independence.  She is no longer so isolated.  I will still visit her on Thursdays. But maybe I can also make it out on Tuesdays sometimes.  The nearest church is my former school so it will be nice to go back to that church.  I usually don't make it out to that church because it's far. But for her and visiting with her it is worth it.  I am blessed and lucky to have Leticia in my life.  She tells me that I have helped her so much.  Truth is...she helped me.

Is it just going to fade?

Ok ok. I am going to try to keep up with this blogging thing. I have plenty to say. My mind has so many scattered thoughts that I should just organize them somewhere.  It's like having a streaming conversation or an ongoing thought where no real break happens. Does that ever happen to you? I mean...do I have a focus? I'm a housewife. I do housewifey things...And projects.  I am always looking for projects. Although my DIY things...well I like to be frugal and economical. I have always been like this.  Reading keeps me company.  And now the kids do too. We have them the whole summer.  They are growing up so fast. So is this blog only for me.. Will anyone read this? Do I want them to? 

Quality time

Spending time with those you love makes you feel fuzzy inside. It's a good feeling. From catching up to the day, cooking, or plaing games, such small gestures of time invested in each other fosters a bond

Tranquility

Find your qualm, your tranquility is that which is so hard to discover.  What is it that makes you happy..soulfully happy to the point of peace. Piece of mind that what stresses and disappointments may occur this piece of heaven for you eludes the demons of your environment that your "happiness" cannot be destroyed.  And when you do...find the passion to keep it, nurture it...and enjoy it for all it is worth.

Being positive for others

Sometimes the smallest thing in a positive way can impact others.  I love knowing that friends sometimes will look at my facebook for inspiration or need an encouraging word.  That feels good that even if I can't help you face to face...I have helped in some way.  It is such a gratifying feeling to help others.  Sometimes when I have had a woe is me I haven't done anything with my life feeling( I have them). I remember that my life isn't about some fab job to have.  My life has purpose and I am here to help others.  My name translates to wealthy in Hebrew but it was never about money.  It was about letting my life and my journey help others.