OCD For the win!

I'm obsessed w draping. I'll be thinking of something and my mind wanders to draping.  I struggled a little.  But I think I'm being hard on myself.  I have most of the mechanics.  I just need to practice and build my confidence.  I'm excited. ..and anxious. ..and all sorts of things at once. I have a purpose.  I have a goal. I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be.

Overwhelming

Ok. Confession. I felt overwhelmed today. I just wasn't picking up draping. Once I have practice and get my confidence up the mechanics should feel more natural. I just need to cut myself slack. Practice will get it into my head.  Zumba was so helpful.  I felt frazzled.  Then some crazy driver was driving backwards in my lane..and well..frazzled. .in general.  And  I got all that pent up anxiety out!:Yah me!

First day...and a bonus!

Orientation is exciting!  I feel goofy for my excitement but I really don't care. The curriculum sounds challenging but amazing.  I saw Victor ! That was unexpected!  I've missed him. He's a director now!  This is so exciting!

The plant that was

So I finally got this elusive fake plant.  It 's a scraggly no nonsense little thing. I love it.  I will have comments from the peanut gallery. I don't care.  I helped a friend today.  It felt good to be able to help.  That feeling of being needed is essential for me.  I thrive on feelings like that.  I also got to hang out with another friend.  And then I go swimming later on.  So this plant...this plant has been a subject of much debate.  I didn't quite like the previous holders of the plant place.  So now...I am happy. Which sounds odd for those who don't know the back story of the plant that was.  I have a rebellious side.  I have been on a more zen path.  But I still have the streak of *meow* when you push my limits.  And my limits have been pushed so to speak.  I rid myself of the problem.  This is a kind of rebellion.  Certain types of people feel the need to control other's life, choices, wants, etc.  Even if it is the wrong choice...it's THEIR choice.  So the plant that was...It's my choice.  Bwahahhaahhaha.

Sleep

If you get the right amount....oh how glorious the next day feels. I've been trying to get around 7 or 8. Preferably,  8. I used a sound machine to get me tp sleep.  I never realized I relied on it to get to sleep.  Apparently,  I need some noise at night to sleep.  It's my way of preparing.  I want to be in the best condition. That way I give my best for school. All this preparation makes me proud. I've thought much of this through. Breakfast,  timing of morning routine,  traffic...etc. I'm ready! Let's do this!

Enjoying small things

I changed my visits w Leticia to Wednesday.  We took a walk. It was nice to just walk and talk. We were looking at people's windows and doors and how decorative they were. And I was just enjoying that I can do that. I can be here w Leticia,  taking a walk,  and talking about decorations.  And I was suddenly thinking of other small things. And enjoying them.

Another step to my dream

I took a test run to see how traffic is in the morning.   I haven't really done the morning traffic thing sice Medtronic.  It's funny how that seems a lifetime away. I'm really going after my dream. Dreams are different for people.  I don't expect everyone to understand.  Although,  if you know me well enough. ..somehow the way this journey took place. ...it makes sense. I'm a firm believer of things happening for a reason. I wasn't ready....until now.