Welcome to my childhood

It's something Jeremy said on our vacation. It was right after we had gone snorkeling in Cozumel.  That was a moment.  It was amazing. It was such an exhilarating experience.  I swam with fishes.  I dove down to pick up items from the Caribbean sea floor.  I was nervous about this experience because of my Epilepsy.  But I have learned with my limitations are.  I am a daredevil in that sense. However, I know how much to push the envelope before I feel I have gone too far.  Sometimes I forget and get a little winded but I never over do it to the point I have a major attack.  It's a balance.  This trip was like a a honeymoon. We had gone to the Bahamas two years before we got married.  And when we got married we did a local honeymoon.  This felt like a honeymoon.  We took in comedy shows. We took in a Burlesque show.  I did some dancing. I did some Karaoke.  We tried to take in a show that highlighted New Orleans style music but they had strobe lights.  This time around I did not get motion sickness.  We came prepared this time. I had motion sickness pills. I wore flats. We got an interior room rather than an ocean view or balcony.  We brought ginger ale for me.  Also, the ride was a lot smoother.  We had one instance of windy weather that looked like it wanted to become a storm but it didn't.  We went to the Dzibilchaltun ruins in Progresso.  I fell in love with Jeremy all over again.  I can't wait to go on another vacation.  I love traveling.  I love being exposed to different cultures.  Back to that statement.  I had an epiphany when Jeremy said , "Welcome to my childhood." It explained his laid back disposition.  It explained why things just fall off Jeremy's shoulders.  When you have grown up with that kind of wonder and beauty....things just seem to fade away or not matter as much.  They become so insignificant.  When I get into a moment of angst...that's where my happy place will be...swimming with the fishes along side Jeremy.  While the picture probably wasn't great Jeremy and I held hands and took a picture while snorkeling.  That's a moment to remember.

Back from vacation

And what a vacation it was.  Much to tell.  But must get back into the groove before writing all the wonderful adventures.  I may just summarize the beautiful feeling I have.  The adventures, the feels, the wonderful cloud 9 I felt I was on.  It's beyond words.  I am officially hooked on cruises. 

The perspective I see or don't see

As open minded as I think I am I have to admit when I hone in a grumble, per se...I am no longer as open minded.  I have learned this about myself. It's a process. I am glad I am aware of it.  It something for me to work.  Anyways, I will make this brief.  I will be out of pocket for a week.  It will be interesting if I come back with a new perspective that I see...or don't see.  I will have many stories to tell.  Talk to you in about a week or see.  I will miss you!!!

Heart melts

I love melting hearts. I love the look of appreciation and happiness I bring when I do something for someone that means alot. I like it just as much when it's a sn all gesture than a big one. It makes my heart melt that the thoughtful gift or gesture made someone smile. Likewise,  when someone does that for me I can't begin to describe the tender emotion of gratitude for thinking of me. Heart melt is a beautiful things. Heart melts are priceless.

Dear Friends

Every once in a  while I like giving a shout out, so to speak for you, my audience.  My silent readers.  You intrigue me.  I am so astounded that anyone reads what I have to say.  I don't say it in a self deprecating way.  I just mean that my thoughts matter to someone. More than one someone, in fact.  I often imagine what attracts a person to read someone's blog.  Insight is often a good start.  I blog about nothing.  I blog about everything.  I blog about thoughts.  Do I lead such an extraordinary life that I have adventures to talk about? Not exactly. For me, they are adventures.  My marriage is an adventure.  But I don't have a crazy life, per se.  Then again, I have had experiences that seem out of the ordinary.  And from those experiences, my dear friends...I have become me.  The beautiful hot mess that is currently residing in me.  It's a wonderful hot mess.  I don't have all the answers.  I'm still trying to figure out the questions.  Of if 42 really is the answer to the question I had. (Movie reference) So, dear friends, thank you for taking time to peruse or read through my random thoughts.  It melts my heart that you read what I am thinking. That you might get insight to Jess.  I I'd also like to thank those friends that I have haven't connected with. I do get curious and check my audience.  It's been a most pleasant experience to have different audience members from different countries read my blog.  You are a friend if you read this.  It means you wanted to know something. Sometimes it might even be about yourself via my crazy random who knows where I get them thoughts.  Thank you, dear friends.  I will never get tired of thanking you.

Information

I found some intriguing information regarding my condition PCOS.  A lifestyle change to a healthier diet is important. It doesn't happen overnight. It's like reprogramming. That is why I'd like to get  new to me information and start checking it out.

Lessons

It's been wonderful to open my eyes and see things from a different perspective.  Jeremy and I likened it to my struggle to do math and his struggle to be social.  Being social comes easy to me.  It doesn't for him.  Math, on the other hand, is his natural element.  And in that lesson to also step back and check an interpretation before reacting.  I am always looking forward to learning.  I'm a student of life.  All my interactions and adventures provide a way to for me to learn.  I'm grateful for lessons.