When you're in an unknown

It's been a theme somehow in different ways but still the idea is...When you're in an unknown.  If you're anything like me you over think everything at the beginning. I need a game plan.  But the whole point is there is no manual for the unknown.  I become mindful how I am thinking and feeling at the moment of the unknown.  I think I started doing this when I would have the partial complex seizures because I am still with you, but I'm powerless.  I don't get to make decisions on what's happening.  Hence, the idea of "capturing the photograph of emotion."  Someone likened it to high seas.  You're navigating with no direction.  That's frightening.  Because you're no sure with each movement forward if that is going to ignite something good, something, bad...or in the case of those who have had trauma...clearly much worse.  Most of us had trauma.  We're survivors of different things.  The stories I learn. The stories I read.  You suddenly realize that some of your fears are just like others.  So what now? You are in this new thing.  This new normal as my psychology professor so eloquently put it for this new mindset and way to charter.  I need a squad, personally.  I gain insight from those who have my best interest at hand.  I soundboard.  And I also soundboard well for others.  I have come recognize that while I am not working as a therapist I am rather invaluable to many people.  Sometimes for just one moment. Others, for many moments.  So...ride the roller coaster that is our life.  Our mistakes are not right or wrong.  They are part of the journey we are taking.  We are warriors.  We take these experiences and learn from that.  Some more than others lol
Even the ones I feel I failed with.  Here's to that roller coaster ride.  You ready? Because you're not going it alone.  I'm here....

That Magic

You have the power to change a person's life, even if it's your own.  You have the power to get people to see the beauty and incredible things they themselves don't see.  You have the power to change a mindset simply by showing them and unlocking that magic. This comes in kindness, in love, in laughter, in friendship, and in partnerships.  I notice it while I'm in the midst of experiencing life.  I do it.  I have that power to make a person feel good about themselves.  And the best part...it's not fake or bullshit or anything.  What I say rings true.  I've always been sincere.  It's like a signature.  So today..as you read this, make your power for good.  Compliment a person randomly.  Or look to your partner and tell them how incredibly lucky you  are to be standing there...with them.  Or your parents, that you are so blessed to have been raised in such a beautiful way.  Or your kids.  That they are the reason you breathe happiness of something bigger than yourself.  Whatever it is, where you you know you wield your power...do it.  I am a strange voice in your void now.  You come here...you read. Sometimes, perhaps you might need insight.  Sometimes you need a laugh or smile.  Whatever it is that I wield by you reading this, know that it's infectious.  I send that power off to you.  And you pay it forward.  And so forth.  And in this quite revolution of kindness.  We can smile and look back and see...we changed.  We made that magic.  You know the best part of my blog.  It's in the shadows.  It's a beautiful poetic corner that you sought.  So thank you, for even giving me that magic.  Certain people and certain experiences have changed me.  But my blog also changed me.  My blog allows me a voice where my words come alive.  I know that Magic.  So go...be the warriors that you know you are.  I know it in you. I don't need to know I do it.  I don't even need to know whom I am wielding that magic for.  The world may seem cruel at times.  And it is. But in the dark beauty there is a beautiful strong poetic fighter of a corner that spews poetic strength where love resides.  And that love...trolls its way to beauty.  Love is not fragile.  It's a strength that overcomes through family, through tragedy, through friendship, through marriages, through oneself.  If anyone tells you otherwise, tell them to talk to me.  I'll go tell them to fuck themselves lol

Not today

Got sick. No inspiration. I'll be back to my adorable self tomorrow.

A thought

I get tickled when different things make people think of me. Today it was receiving my Water Lillies wallet. Still, I smile that I spire a thought. Or that something comes up or pops up and I enter your mind. It's a beautiful feeling, really. It's not one I can really put into words. But I am always humbled and grateful you think of me

Am I paying attention?

Am I paying attention to what is good..or bad? Am I looking at what's right and wrong? Is there a line where I need to draw? Am I looking for it all? Do I need to want for more or less? Is it good at worst or best? Do I ned to pay attention to what I want or need? Or is this what I accept. Did I burn? Will I bleed? Do not forsake me because you cannot see the scar that bares the burden I breathe. Am I paying attention to you more than me. Because if I do I will not say. You will burn...but I will fade.

I went all poetic there!  Ride the roller-coaster!

A fixed point

That's what I feel at a fixed point in my life.  There was a moment.  There were so many things running in my head.  The moment froze.  It's though art took over and life began.  It was a rebirth.  Something happened to me.  I wish I could explain.  I just know that sometimes in life, you have moments that you look back, and you will remember....That moment defined you.  All I can tell you is that I felt transformative.  I felt the most alive I think I have ever felt.  For the obvious reasons. Then, for the not so obvious reasons.  Words fail me on how I truly felt.  But the best I have is poetry in motion.  Find your poetry in motion. It just might change you. Funny, Today...Jeremy's and my song just came on.  The Universe is smiling down on me.

Depth

When you find it...hold on to it. Depth.....By friends. ...by love...by yourself.  You learn about yourself. You..for one brief moment understand why 42 is the meaning of life. Or our purpose. Metaphysical makes more sense. And magic is real. All because you opened your mind to depth. And your heart.