the quality of friendships

I remember a friend pointing out that it is important to for both parties to benefit from the friendship. I agree with that point. My most important friendships stem from a trust and vulnerability I have with said individuals. I think because of my persona I try too hard to establish or develop a bond with certain people that really I am not sure I would call friends. Having recognized that I can't have this with everything it helps to understand that some friends are going to be closer to my heart than others. And for the first time in a long time I am okay with that. I am happy in my life. That has been a journey...a long time coming.