One of those days

I lost my ipod and sunglasses. This seems trivial but I really liked my ipod. It might be time for another ipod. I am kinda in a grouchy mood. Even positive people have off days. This would be that day. Maybe I will make soap today to make me feel better.

the quality of friendships

I remember a friend pointing out that it is important to for both parties to benefit from the friendship. I agree with that point. My most important friendships stem from a trust and vulnerability I have with said individuals. I think because of my persona I try too hard to establish or develop a bond with certain people that really I am not sure I would call friends. Having recognized that I can't have this with everything it helps to understand that some friends are going to be closer to my heart than others. And for the first time in a long time I am okay with that. I am happy in my life. That has been a journey...a long time coming.

My poetry

I have really neglected my poetry. Here are some samples of my poetry. I am no Keats. However, I do like expressing myself and missed writing in my book. Jeremy gave me this beautiful Burgandy book to write my poems in. Here goes.

Didn't Know-my first poem in the book. 12/10/05

I wanted you

I didn't try

I didn't know

you felt the same

We didn't ask

what was there

we didn't slip

we didn't fail

Time....stood...still

We didn't know our eyes had met

Perhaps a destination that today we only knew

We have walked together, a familiar face

In silence we have walked there many times

Only today was there the walk we knew

hiding in plain sight

Today you looked into my eyes

Today, I did see you for the first time

Going to try again

I am going to try to start blogging again. One of my best friends started a blog and felt inspired to start up again. I got into soapmaking. I love it. Currently, I am a volunteer for Grace Place which is a Center for Alzheimer's for Seniors and a Senior companion. I got married recently. Jeremy and I have been together for almost 7 years. It's important sometimes to write down thoughts even if they random, a stream of thoughts, or make no sense to anyone but you. There are times that even my own thoughts don't make sense to me and I try figuring out the meaning behind the thoughts. I hope that makes sense. Sometimes our purpose in life isn't a clear answer. Sometimes we have to follow a path that seems unlike a journey we thought we would venture. Sometimes finding oneself is by helping others find themselves. What do I mean by all of this. Where am I going with all this? Perhaps my main point is that life has a funny way of working things out.

Vent

I needed to vent earlier. I had a rotten day. Luckily, talking with Jeremy helped. Just voicing my frustration help release tension. Thank goodness I get to be with someone like him.

Random thoughts

Random thoughts can be so distracting. I don't have much to write about. Although I am in good spirits since my health seems to being doing better. I had an old friend come back into town and it was great to hang out with him. I also realized the depth Jeremy and I share of a bond as I look around and here and listen to certain stories of relationships. Don't get me wrong. Jeremy and I struggle just as much as any other couple re balance and things. I just have a new found appreciation for our roles for each other. I trust him and he trusts me. It's not that I took it for granted. I just didn't see how much of an impact it really had to the friendship we have. Jeremy is a wonderful person. An odd person who seems to go against the norm of people. However, that is also his endearing quality. He also doesn't judge. At least me he doesn't. He has his flaws, no doubt. But then again...so do I. Anyways, that's my random thought for the day

Google this

I finally came to the Dark side and got myself invited to Google +. So far..so good. I really want to get back to blogging. When myspace...YES! That long ago I used to be very consistent on writing in my blog. So here I am again...trying it..again.