On this Day memory

YOU CAN'T BEAT YOURSELF UP FOR HAVING TOO MUCH LOVE TO GIVE.  YOU CAN ONLY FEEL SORRY FOR THOSE WHO DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY'RE MISSING OUT ON

-BILLY CHAPTA

This was on my memory today.  What a true statement to make.  I've always said I'm a bowl full of love.  The interesting thing about me is that even if I don't like someone, in a public place, I won't exert my inner feelings.  Which usually means I don't show the ugly side to not liking a person.  It doesn't make me a good or bad person.  It just makes me, me.  But when I do love...I love with everything I have.  My friends know this.  The inner circle that I choose to have now.  They know my loyalty.  They know my unconditional love for them.  It took such a long time to get to this pace of trust with people.  I felt like I kept failing.  I would think I found some kind of kindred spirit and A) I'd get betrayed or B) I'd find out we were not positive impacts in each other's lives.  I am more self aware of my issues.  I seek to communicate better.  But I'm not perfect.  And I know it.  The positive in all this is having an easier time to share with Jeremy.  That was so hard.  He seemed disinterested or I perceived him disinterested.  Or I wouldn't even share thinking my thoughts were not worth sharing.  They would stupid or silly.  If I have a request, I ask now.  I may still get a no from someone.  But at least I had the courage to ask.  If I have a bother or grievance, I try addressing it more quickly so it doesn't fester into a bigger problem.  I don't shut down and become mousy.  I'm learning boundaries.  It's a daily thing to work on, really.  And sometimes, I feel I fail on addressing boundaries.  That's usually when I get into an argument or struggle to figure out even what I want to accomplish.  Again, it's a daily thing to work on.  I'm happy, though.  I have a certain peace in my life that is a beautiful feeling. By design, I have the right kind of people in my life, including that pain in the ass by fiercely loving husband of mine. lol   I am surrounding myself with people that have my well being in mind.  What more could I ask for?