Sunday, September 27, 2009

honor codes

thjinking about that right now/ What constitues right and wrong then? What is the truth then? And where do you find it?

Thursday, September 24, 2009

a journal of miagranes

I needed to write down my symptoms today. This tingling feeling is not going away. It goes away. It comes back. We shall see what this is tomorrow when I go to the dr.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

When being right can be wrong

I do know that being right is one thing but I gotta say. One has to realize the reality of how harsh the outside world and most especially a workplace can be. A repuation is important. It can one day be your saving grace. It's hard for me to know that I could potentially lose another coworker that I have grown quite fond of. I already lost one person. Just wanted to put that out there.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

New class

New class. So excited. I am just happy to be clsoer to graduating. Just wanted to put that out there.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Best Friends

They are special gifts in my life. I am so lucky to have Kristi and Sandy in my life. They are like sisters to me. It's wonderful because I had lunch with Sandy and I am going to have dinner and watch OTH with Kristi. Brody is at my feet. So cute. You can feel less stress. I definitely feel less stressed. It's good to be me.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

the power of healing

Sometimes it is years. It might take different types of therapy. Sometimes you do it alone. Sometimes you have support. You just got to get through the healing. It feels good to heal.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Feeling right in your life

I am listening to swedish contemporary rock while doing schoolwork. I was a madwoman yesterday with the organizing. I also became obcessive compulsive regarding the elusive black skirt. Life feels so right. I am going to Mass with my parents tomorrow. It's good to get back into a routine. Just a lazy day for the Kearney family. Thomas and Ashley are playing WOW. Jeremy is reading a book. I am bouncing from schoolwork to breaks. I need them! I am almost done with this class. Not much else. Life is good.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

It's a whole new life

Things are so different. You feel it. I just said goodbye to the kids on their way to school. My mom is dropping them off today. She is starting her routine again. But I can feel the atmoshphere so different. No matter what happens...next year. I know the kids are in good hands with us. We make a great team. I feel the difference there too.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Waking up on the right side of life

You sometimes change must be made in order to see how different life can be. I am starting to take B12 for my miagranes, I have Ebson salt. I changed my schedule. I make time for myself along with school. I organized my life. I sleep much better. All that can really make a difference on waking up on the right side of life. In the dark right now, listening to Enya, feeling so relaxed...and calm. Not having stress is good. Granted there are outward stresses that always be there, bills..loans..etc. But I can't let it get to me. In this moment...it is mine. It feels good.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Winding down with wine

It is so amazing to put events in my phone and off they go into my google calender. Having some wine to wind down the day. I have lunch with Sandy tomorrow. I only have two more days of my old schedule. I am so looking fwd to my new schedule. Well..off I go to enjoy the rest of my night. Life is good. Life is very good.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

A Good Feeling

There is something about blogging again that feels less pressured. I don't have to blog everyday. Yet, I have a place to put my thoughts. I don't even know if anyone listens. I don't think that matters to me. What matters is that I let go of the thoughts in my mind. Thinking to much of things can make a person feel drained. School is important to me but it is mentall draining. Being able to enjoy myself as an adult and not always have parent responsibilities is a nice balance. I am able to still have outlets and other indulgences for the balance of being a parent. I love parenting. But it is exhausting.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Closer to my dream

Each day brings me closer to my dream. I feel so happy that I have a goal at hand. I feel like I have direction. It is nice to have support and love along this journey. I also don't feels so orphaned with no place to put my thoughts. Do you know how unsettling that is for me? I have to start on my schoolwork but I love coming to this IGoogle page. I customized my own organization with my life. It's pretty nifty

Friday, September 11, 2009

Getting started

Okay. I feel officially back in the game. I needed a place to send my thoughts. It felt wierd not to blog but I am so over Myspace. Isn't everyone? I organize my phone with my life. I am relieved about my new schedule too. Alot is going on. But all is well in the universe again because I am getting myself organized. Some people feel more at peace when things just seem to be in place. As chaotic as my mind is....I need organization for it. I work much better when I feel this organization. So here I am again, sending out to the void.