The older I get

I don't remember being this grateful of what I when I was younger.  I think I either took it for granted or wasn't as aware of it as I do now.My health. My home. My husband. My family. My career. My friends. I take it in. And I'm humbled.  Becoming older has its certain advantages. And I still look younger than I am. I definitely don't take that for granted!

In the zone

Organizing.  Having music. Going over notes. Working out. These help me to be in the zone. This has consumed me. I live and breathe this. I read about it. I watch you tube videos. I look at my notes. I knew I had the passion.  I just didn't know it was this passionate.  All to be the best I can be.

Organize

I need to reorganize my schedule.  I still want to work. I still want to do yoga. I still need do errands.  And here and there brush up on my massage techniques.  Organize.  I love organizing.  It calms. It's almost therapeutic.

The plan is....

Yup. Gotta roll with the punches.  Plot twist. But somehow. ...I loved it. 1st day was certainly an experience. It's a memory now! I can't wait to do it again!  The more I do it...the more my groove is smoother.  Alright...down time for me. Time to relax.

Internship

That's a whole new beast. I'm ready.  I'm nervous.  I'm excited.  I'm there!

Paying it forward

That's the beauty of kindness.  Paying it forward.  The positive energy that surrounds that concept is...overpowering.  You don't know what impact you have on doing something nice with no provocation. But you let the kindness continue. You let the positive energy surround your day my someone else's.  And that makes all difference.

People

I'm a people person.  But sometimes people irritate me. Their know it all attitude.  Their control freak factors. Just something made me grumpy. I got over it.  But ughs...... I don't like having to fake kindness but sometimes it's not worth getting into it with people.  It's easier just to go with the flow. At some point I won't have to see your face. Damn. I'm thinking out loud again lol

At the end of the tunnel

A career that I'm passionate about.  A way to help people.  A place for my networking and social skills to excel. A calm environment.  A way to contribute to finances. A chance to learn a skill that I've dreamed of doing. A chance to be happy on my terms. A way to manage working and my health regarding my Epilepsy. 
A chance to get back into the workforce.  That's what is at the end of the tunnel.

Another chapter soon

If all goes well I should be starting internship soon. Provided my prenatal and trigger point exam go well. I also have a test tomorrow.  It's crazy. 3 months I couldn't find enough activities to fill the day. Now...I have to rearrange because I have a lot on my plate. Much of it is school.  It doesn't end with class. I study constantly.  I try to keep up practice outside of class.  I also find time to decompress so I can balance my wellbeing.  I've slacked on my workout.  I need to go back to it. Just something comes up. A new chapter starts soon. I'm excited. ...and nervous

Happy for you

I may not celebrate Valentine's Day but I can enjoy and happily listen to happy stories.  I don't believe in the commercialization of it all. But I respect others on wanting to share their happiness.  And plans. Hugs to you all.

Just right

I have to have things just right. I organize a lot. I like lists.  I like order. If you didn't know better you might think I have COD tendencies.  Yeah. I thought so too. Maybe I do. But it works for me. I get things done. Organizing also calms me. Who knew organizing would be considered therapy?

My journey

I was late to the game when it came to a career. Better late than never! And for me...the timing is right. I'm older. I'm in a different level of my life. There's been speedbumps. And there will be.  My priority is this. I don't apologize for it. It's not just classroom time. It's practice time. It's studying.  It's keeping my tools in good shape.  It's keeping me in shape.  I treasure any down time because I don't want to slack. But aIso recognize that my physical and mental state need rest. It means I'll be a better massage therapist.

It just takes a few words

Sometimes you can turn someone's day around with a few words. It can make the world of a difference.  And sometimes you may feel just a little more bounce because you know. ..perhaps. ...you did that too. The older I'm getting the less effort I want on fighting with anyone. I'm grateful for the life I have. I am humbled by my experiences.

Sometimes

Sometimes there are days that could use a do over. I could count this day. On to tomorrow.

Just being

That support system is what helps us get through things. Sometimes it's talking. Sometimes we need to vent. Sometimes it's doing nothing at all but being there. I have that. I like knowing I can be that for you too

Exhausted

I think school and running around has caught up to me. I didn't feel motivated to go to Zumba.  But I did walk almost 7,10001 steps. That counts,  right? Internship is coming soon. I hope I get through the practical in order to get to internship.  I think once I'm doing it I will feel more confident.  Just right...I feel nervous.  One day at a time.

Puke fest

Puke now. I am having a girl moment . I was cuddled in Jeremy's arms. I felt this juice surrender. And I took it in. I do that now...not to be morbid...but just so I can remember. It does sound morbid...doesn't it?  The older I'm getting I'm truly cherishing each moment.

Life as I know it

My life is so different from two years ago. I was stressed.  I was struggling with my health. I felt out of wack. I had to gain control of my health.  I also had to learn how to control my stress and emotions.  It's easier said than done to not let things get to you. But you lose out in the long run. Those toxins stay with you. Plus all that anger and anxiety is only making things worse for you. That was the key.  Internalizing this anger was not good for me. Slowly. ...And I do mean slowly. ...I learn to let things go. It was the best decision ever.

Intense

Today's class proved intense.  I don't know if I have TMJ but with some of the symptoms and how my jaw reacted I think it's safe to say I have some form of it .There are different levels of it. I imagine my grinding my teeth and biting my mouth doesn't help. Sometimes my jaw locks too.This helps but it also brought out tension areas. You learn something new everyday.