Outside the box

My studying is odd. It works.  I reference random things and assiate things that you wouldn't necessarily put together.  So studying I am. Off to study more.

On call

I got called for one session.  It was chaos. Luckily things calmed down when the client got her massage.  Not only did she fall asleep but at certain times she was talking to herself.  That was a first.

Can't get too comfortable

As soon as I want to celebrate I am reminded that I have another obstacle to get through.  These tests are going to be something. Here goes!

A moment to slow down

Internal clock telling me to slow down.  It's not always a physical slow down. Sometimes it's also a mental.  I can only study so much. Then I gotta let myself chill. The information slowly seeps in. And then I get back to it again.  But for right now. ...relax. ...listen to the music. ....and just "rest" my brain

School family

I like that our class is small.  It helps create a family like atmosphere.  We want each other to do well. We have all kinds of personalities.  But it creates this nice blend. I enjoy going to class.  The lecture is insane and I do need coffee to keep myself alert..but I'm going to miss this. I'm going to miss them.

Epilepsy

I usually can forget that I'm Epileptic.  And then seeing a laser pointer,  anxiety,  or something else can trigger an episode.  And then you're stopped in your tracks.  Sometimes I have to slow down. 

Overwhelming

Getting back into the groove of class.  The information was overwhelming. I have to   only do so much. Otherwise,  I feel like I'm getting in way over my head. But 3rd semester reminds me I'm in the homestretch. So..this is is me taking a deep breath. ...

Class

Back to class Monday.  I'm excited.  I'm nervous.  I'm happy.  I'm alot of things. I'm close to the finish line.  This journey has been extraordinary. 

Pushing for 90

I'm on a mission.  I really want to make 90 hours.  I wanted to make 85. 90 seemed like a bonus.  But now. ...now seems like I could get that pot of gold. Wish me luck!  Working extra tomorrow and Saturday.

Ah marketing

I'm watching a commercial.  It looks all inspiring. And come to find out it's a department store.  But I guess if it inspires....right? Makes you remember the commercial. ...lol

The gift of you

It's not conceited.  In this day and age of the hustle bustle world time is critical.  So when we make effort to give time,  whether through text, phone calls,  face to face or social networking...etc...we give of ourselves.  We carved time to think of you.  It's that simple. 

Tangent

I have quite a few of them. They seem neurotic and displaced.  However,  I think they help me compartmentalize. They bring a sense of order ro the stream of thought that is present.  It's a wave of thought that makes sense in an alternate view or perspective.  It helps to slow down thoughts and put them in a file. And going off on tangents helps my expression. I get it out of my system and off to another line of thought.  But Jeremy helps to muddle through like a manager and a translator. 

A nap

A nap is what I need.  I picked up someone's hours. They had an entire package.  It was great ro be able to do this for the client.  But now. ..I'm feeling like a nap.

Study habits

I have no clue what I'm looking at when I see the flash cards. It doesn't make sense.  However,  I figure if I start getting in the practice of studying again I can retrain myself to good study habits.  So...here I am...staring...and hopefully it makes sense when I get back to class

Love

I never expected to know Love like this. We've worked hard for this. It didn't come easy. But we didn't want to give up on each other when we couldn't see eye to eye. We both have changed.  We both comprise. We both are lucky. We get each other.

Direction

I knew starting the journey by going to school for massage would bring change. I hadn't realized other aspects would also be so drastically influenced.  I feel more focused.  I think things through more often. I found clarity.  I also didn't realize Jeremy and I could be closer. 

Interesting

This day was interesting all over the place.  Each session had a unique way about it. I'm so happy I was able to pick up these hours.  Now to enjoy a hockey with Jeremy. It's a work thing. Him and work peeps got a section.  I'm happy they did this again.  It was so much fun last time.

Cupcakes and unicorns

I know that not every is. I know that each moment won't be. I just have to be reminded of that. I will fall on my ahem because my new normal has been filled w cupcakes and unicorns.  And then the reality will remind me that it's not even about me. Situations are sometimes out of my control and I need to keep that in mind. It's also important on how I handle it all. Lesson learned. 

Something to work on

So I'll have lots of positive things and I find myself grateful.  But I still harp..even if it's temporary on that negative.  I'm working on it. I must remember the good outweighs the bad. And in life it's  one of my go to mantras. If your good outweighs your bad....we're good. That and no drama. I get not every day will be cupcakes and unicorns.  But be mindful of your negative energy.

Reactions..my take

We react differently to situations.  I appreciate that. It shows me different perspectives of how things can be handled.  When our experiences shape how we react to things...get triggered...perhaps. .or recognizing the symbolism of something. . .. it's important to analyze what that symbolism means. It helps you understand yourself and how you react to things in life. There isn't a wrong way or right way...because truth is slightly different to all of us. But there is a certain clarity...a certain amount of that truth to go by. To aspire to have. And that makes all the difference in the world. ....to me.