This weekend

Going up to visit Jeremy was amazing.  I stayed one day longer.  It was a nostalgic weekend.  Jeremy and I played video games and pin ball machines from our youth.  We played the infamous Addams Family one from our UTSA days.  I played skeet ball.  We played Pac Man on this huge screen. 
It was an indescribable weekend.  I gained a perspective of how life isn't always in black and white.  That really grey is the color of life.  I learned so much this weekend.  I learned that I will have struggles with Jeremy.  And that's okay.  We reset  like this weekend and we are okay.  I'm human.  I will have my feelings.  He's human. He will goof up on me  We're human.  We won't always communicate properly or well.  But then....we do.  I'm so proud of Jeremy.  He's doing well at work.  We're helping each other to evolve in our relationship.  We're being able to live our lives together...and separate.  It's not ideal.  But it's a whole lot better than Arizona.  As I write this, there is much I am not writing. Yet, I feel like you can see my smile.  I feel different.  In a good way.  Here's to enjoying life, taking each day at  a time. 

Every day

Every day I fall in love with my photography journey.  Some days seem boring with the concept.  Yet, I find ways to think about what it will be.  Sometimes, I think I know what it will be.  And I conceptualize it to the end.  Other days, it's just as much a surprise to me. I'm so happy.

This feeling of peace

I have Melody Gardot radio going.  That's my photography music.  I'm looking at Jeremy and smiling.  This feeling of peace is intoxicating.  I'm uploading today's concept.  I'm thinking of tomorrow's concept.  I'm thinking of work.  I'm thinking of life.  I do get nervous about this new position, at times.  I worry I won't get it or not perform.  And then, I remember, my boss saw this potential and greatness in me, the first time she met me.  I'm going to have those self doubt moments.  I've spent most of my life doubting myself.  But I am amazing.  I'm smart.  I'm a badass.  Certainly, my confidence is so different.  I have a lot more confidence, these days.