Negative energy

People w negative energy....throw me off. Aren't you exhausted being that mean....spiteful, criticsl...or just plain negative? It's hard for me to understand that when some people gwt butt hurt tgey lash out. They become toddler version of themselves throwing a tantrum as though you took their pacifier.  How bratty. How immature. How unclassy....

Declutter

Something about organizing and decluttering makes me happy.  I didn't get to the garage but I certainly was productive today. Declutter helps clarify what is being used and what isn't.  I'm so aware of the space we live in now that I try to utilize the space properly. Sure...my problems and challenges are nothing compared to my past...and I like it like that. Stress level is down. I surround myself w positive people.  I try to stay busy, positive,  useful, or contribute some purpose in tge world. Sometimes it's projects at home. Other times it's being there for a friend. Sometimes it's to learn something new..or have a new perspective or outlook on something.  Declutter...my...life. I like that.

The space we live in

Ughs. I loathe the fact Rosie was right. This room looks amazing!  It feels like a new room. O trief to surprise Jeremy but I failed...in an epic way. Luckily,  Nat snd Rosie came ovet and helped. I love my place. It's amazing.

Inconsistency finally got me

Vacation meant I really couldn't get to blogging...so I didn't count that time.  However, when I went back to my reality I assumed blogging duties.  Unfortunately, I didn't do it for two days.  Back on the blogging wagon I go.  Not much is going on.  I am doing more home improvement projects. Doing normal household chores...that never seem to end. lol . I am reading.  A migraine hit me today.  I slept it off.  I didn't sleep well last night.  So I took it easy.  And by easy I mean I did laundry, dusted, washed dishes, and read.  I did work out early so that I fulfill the work out requirement I give myself on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I slacked on Tuesday. But Liz gave us a work out on the vacation that I figured I could use it. lol Anyways, no Leticia today since I wasn't feeling well. Hopefully, I see her next week.

Back to reality

Back to reality.  Laundry is being done. I got my inspection sticker.  I mailef the registration.  I made a small album of vacation pictures.  And now back to reading. It's been a very productive day. I will be happy that Jeremy is not on furlough. ..but I am enjoying Mondays. Making the best of it.

safari

We had been there 4 years ago.  Funny how things change. The kids could really appreciate it. Wr had so much fun. I took so many pictures and vidro. Can't wait for tomorrow!

Ready set...vacation!

It's been a week.  I am ready for a vacation.  I am so excited.  I'm trying to think if I've missed something.  I have my list. I love my lists.  So ready for this.  So ready.

memories

Watching Leticia unable to let ho of her old life and memories broke my heart. On one hand I can understand the difficulty. However, I understand the need to consolidate stuff. It's not an easy thing to do. She does need a smaller space.  Its good she's in this senior living place. It's just hard...watching her let go...

Packed...and ready to go

Today was packing day.  I organized a list. Of course I did.  There are a few things we have to wait to put in before we really leave.  Then there are audiobooks to remember about.  I'm charging the camera.  Phone chargers need to be remembered. Little things like that are what we still need to think about.  It's so close.  Considering the week that I've been having...yeah....the timing is great for a vacation.  I am so excited to see Liz and Jess.  There are memories to be made.  I can't wait.

The universe and it's funny ways

The universe finds ways to talk.  It's hard to explain what I really mean. But I witnessed it today.  It's odd to sometimes think that the white elephant in the room...might actually be right in front of you...and you weren't even aware. Or it might even be you.  In all of this...it got me thinking of the many blessings I have.  My family is quirky...fragmented...and like any family has seen it's ups and downs.  I have blood. I don't deny that I do.  But the people I call...when I cry...those are my family.  Those are the ones that have seen my worst days...and know why I have them.  I love them. I love our history together...whether it's good...bad...or ugly....it's a story to tell...of our friendship.  I am constantly grateful for the life I am living.  and I will continue to be grateful.

not much for words

I'm not much for talking.  I figured it was my exception. But I wanted to be consistent. So this is me being consistent

Abuelita

She passed away today. I said goodbye last night. Emotions running rampant. So many thoughts in my head. My stomach hurts a little. I'm so grateful to have Jeremy.

Can't think

I have too many thoughts.  I'm feeling too much. I'm notfeeling enough.  I need to remember tobreathe.  And am reminded how incredibly lucky I am.

so much on my mind,,,,and yet not much to write about it

Do you have those days where so much is on your mind but you just can't think of anything to write? I had to pace myself today because the last couple of days I have been super busy with redoing the living room and dining room.  I am trying to do everything on a budget. And there was just a "moment" I had today.  I don't want to explain it but it did leave me sad, frustrated, and painfully aware of reality really works.  But then I went for a swim and it did make me feel better.  I think reading is in order tonight.  Enough writing for now. I don't have much to say.

Tangents

I had curtains on the brain.  I couldn't sleep.  I think I narrowed it down to brown or dark chocolate curtains.  Yes. I am one of those bargain shoppers. Always looking for the best price. Not the first price.  And then I organized the memory boxes.  Today I want to pain the table they stand on.  My mind is going different directions right now.  Different tangents.  It's funny and a little hectic inside this brain.  I am excited to fix up more of the place.  I wish I could write more but I think I have hit a wall about wanting talk about this and rather do this...or at least be doing something.  Productive day...here we come!