Volunteer

It felt good to volunteer.  We massaged soldiers. We massaged employees from the mental health department.  It was awesome.  They looked so grateful!  I was honored to do this.

Don't be nervous

It was the best and simplest answer. Especially,  since my friend said...I've seen you when you're nervous. ..and when you're not. There's a difference.  Once I was in...I wasn't.  It was like being in the zone.  The power of words

Ramblings

I'm rambling.  I don't have inspiration for a blog.  Course, sometimes the inspiration reveals itself. Like how you control your happiness.  How you have to grab the bull by the horns and do...not think about. ..not talk about. ..do. Today was onto something.  lol. It's not easy. There are falls. What seems like failure is just a way of finding out that the fit you thought was good...wasn't.  Relationships work Luke that too. And then there is hard work.  Getting that goal requires dedication, commitment,  and hard work.  But it's all worth it in the end.

Most excellent

Some days it's like the stars align. It's like everything fell into place. ..only you weren't aware of this. This unexpected natural progression just sort of revealed itself. I speak in vague.  I write  in encrypted style.  But I know.  I know this secret. I know this feeling of centered. I am finding my quantity.

Not quite

Interesting little story. For my birthday Jeremy ordered a headrest for the massage table Leah gave me as a gift. It was a standard deluxe.  Anyways the brand name is Stronglite. I thought Earthlite was the same brand.  It was delivered along with the facepad we ordered. It didn't fit. I called Stronglite to find the item number for the headrest. Discontinued until March.  I asked if Massage warehouse had it. Customer service said no. But I got the specs so I knew what headrest was correct. I called Massage warehouse.  Fewer than 5 left. Old customer service info. It will show out of stock if fewer than 5 left. I got it ordered.  And out of courtesy the customer service representative,  Dentist threw in a prepaid label. Yah! Problem solved.

Day late

I'm lucky.  I'm married to my Best Friend.  Those are just pretty words on a wall. He's my soul's twin. I can't explain.  Nor do I want to. Im just lucky.

Cold

We are in San Antonio,  right. I'm glad our pets are already indoor pets. I can't imagine being in this cold. I'm grateful for the roof over my head. I'm grateful for warm clothes.  I'm grateful for a heater. I'm just plain grateful.

36 for only a few more days....

37....interesting.  In a couple of days I will be 37. I think 40 will blow my mind.  I don't feel different.  And some days I do. So many experiences.  So many memories.  So many more to go. After the first part of my life had rough spots it's nice that this storyline is so much sweeter

One of those days

It was one of those days. I almost forgot my sheets.  I forgot to put the blankets in the dryer.  Luckily,  I have backups.  I misplaced my keys only to find them in my lunch bag. And that was just the morning.  My techniques seemed off today. It just wasn't sticking.  Gonna have days where I don't get everything.  It's frustrating still. But pep talks help. I have a great support system. 

A lifetime ago

I met Jeremy 19 years ago. Technically,  we met when I was a senior in high school.  But I really became friends when I started college.  Funny how things happened.  While there are people and things that made my life less than pleasant I am always grateful for this day and suddenly I can forgive. In certain ways they made this day possible This day changed my life. I just didn't know it at the time. But looking back...at the movie. .my movie I smile. The protagonist falls in love with the handsome prince and lives happily ever after.

Peace

It's a nice feeling.  Things used to get to me. In fact,  I would get mad at the smallest things. I had a short fuse. Fast forward and silly things that used to make me upset now amuse me. Peace within is such an incredible feeling.  Self control and being centered has changed my perspective and most of all my stress level.  It took me long enough to really understand this peace. But here I am.

Being around good people

Being around good people is important.  Learning from friends,  classmates, and family gives you perspective.  Every day you can learn...and that is what I'm grateful.  I learn every day

Justify

Sometimes I justify as though I have to explain myself.  What was funny is that a wise young friend set me straight.  She reminded me that I didn't need to justify n myself.  I knew the situation better than anyone.  Sometimes I just need a nudge to remind myself I don't need to justify myself. ...to anyone.

Struggling is good. Doesn't mean I like it

It's a good lesson to understand struggle.  Struggling helps you appreciate the goal in front of you. Struggling helps to motivate you. It doesn't mean I have to like it. I had one of those days where I felt like I was struggling.  It frustrates me. But I don't want it consuming me. I just need to take it one day at a time. 

I'm blank

I'm not sure what to write.  I'm thinking of my test. I'm thinking of dinner.  I'm thinking of study group.  I'm thinking of laundry.  Another day perhaps. Perhaps. .perhaps, perhaps.

A future

When you can visualize that future,  whether professional or personal you have that much more incentive to see it through.  You have that more drive to press through pain, physical,  mental,  or emotional. And it makes the strides you went through to get there that much more rewarding.  It makes the roadblocks that much more necessary and appreciated in order to see the bigger picture.

Taking a break

Body is sending signals.  Today...I need to rest. I want to go to Zumba. But I also need to listen to my body. I feel sorry in my legs. I need to balance trying to do everything.  I'm not super woman.  So...today I relax and enjoy some me time.  Tomorrow I swim hopefully.

Spirituality

I still pray. I pray for my friends.  I pray for my parents.  I pray for my kids. I tend to do it before eating.  I thank for the food. And living one more day. I don't like being public about it. I respect my friends that can be vocal about their spirituality.  I just don't.  Which is why it's a big deal even blogging about it. I feel centered in life.  I am calmer about things. I have more clarity.  I feel good about that.  I feel good about the positive energy that surrounds me. And it comes from my support. Thank you.

Intense training

Trigger point is intense. I love learning it, though.  If we learn this well...we will never be unemployed.  I can see that. After today...wellness seems Luke child's play. I still feel the knots unwinding. ..so to speak.  It's very interesting.

Getting closer

Every class.  Each week. I get closer to the dream. Today. ..as I saw my grade...I felt that taste of being closer to the dream. It feels good to have direction in my life. Had a wonderful conversation with my friend,  Susan about that. Looking to the future

Feeling it the day after

Ow! This is what I get for slacking.  My legs huuuuurt. ...but in a good way. I need to get back on track.

Zumba!

I slacked off enough.  Missing class put me out of whack. I'm glad to get back to my groove.  Zumba makes me happy.  Having wonderful instructors help. And the social aspect of it adds to it. Life calls.    Haha..silky movie made me think...Endorphins make you happy.  Happy people don't kill. Ooh something shiny moment.  Sorry. lol

Holiday

Crazy holiday schedule over with. I liked it but it was messing up my groove and routine.  So...back to business. ..back to school.