A few more pictures

I found this while going through more pictures and organizing.  We're so young!

The new normal

I am getting used to my new normal.  I work.  I work on my photography.  I see Jeremy.  I love him seeing him more often, now.  It's funny how routine is so cherished now.  Ethan needed help with car so I helped out.  It was nice spending time with Lovie 1.  He will be 50 and I will still be happy to do mom stuff for him.  I know he appreciates it.  I love being the friend mom, now! I'm pretty busy until next Friday.  I like working.  And then, making time for my artistry.  I feel such an indescribable emotion when I'm behind the lens.  I imagine capturing that moment.  I imagine how I may be able to evoke an emotion with my art.  Colors sometimes become centerpieces in the picture.  Other times, between the light, the angle, and the subject...it becomes more.  Maybe I overthink what goes into a picture lol.  But I love that.  I love being a part of groups to display my work.  I love developing my artist pages. I told Jeremy in our conversation, today, how happy he has made me by giving the camera.  I find myself when I get lost in a picture. 

A way to maintain my healing

This is a way to maintain my healing...

This picture feels like it was a poem

The colors really called to me

We saw each other

I took it in

Taking this picture made me smile

Working on my freeze with water pictures

Deja Vu....Today, I was not lost

They were a poem I feel like I almost remembered long ago

Every time I take a journey

Every time I take a photography walk or journey, I learn something new about myself.  It's a strange feeling discovering things about yourself.  There is a particular picture that struck a chord with me.  It was a feeling of Deja Vu,  I had been in that spot before, more traumatized.  Lost even.  I remember hoping that one day, if I stood in that same spot, I would be in a better state of mind.  It was a hope.  It was a prayer.  And there I was, in that spot today, living that dream.

My personal gallery

We went to a Yule Ball.  That was fun!

I like this vintage vibe to it

Took another picture of this tree

The ninja neighbor

My ninja of a neighbor

I took this after I got off work

Another vintage vibe picture

The Hufflepuff and Ravenclaw

This was one of my favorite pictures

Another picture I took when I got off work

This was too funny not to take

The life I'm meant to live

I remember one of my friends telling me that once I actually felt the genuine self love, I'd have it reflected in my life.  Since my strange departure from therapy, that's what happened.  I suddenly realized I was in a good head space.  At the moment, I feel healed.  Do I have moments where I need to coach myself or give myself a pep talk of sorts? Yes.  One doesn't truly quite wrap themselves around what happens to a survivor until they may be in the situation.  But here I am, living my best life.  I'm living, healed.  And my life seems to reflect that.  Work has unfolded in an interesting way to future possibilities.  Meanwhile, I am unexpectedly making connections in the photography world.  I'm living the life I'm meant to live.  In about a year, Jeremy and I find out where we will be living.  Austin or San Antonio.  Either way, I support him.  I can do caregiving, anywhere.  And I can do my photography journey, anywhere as well.  Funny how that works out. lol I feel such a burst of happiness every time I take a picture.  Every time I get to improve on my artistry, it makes me happy.  This journey is not something I have planned at all.  I'm winging it in many ways.  But I want to go at my pace.  And that is why there isn't any formal training, just yet.  I want to learn different perspectives, different ideas.  Not just the technical aspect of photography.  But even the emotional part of photography. 

Stories to tell

Instead of Mimi, Queen Quack Quack has decided to grace us with her presence 

She lights up a room, doesn't she?