What a weekend

I'll be upfront.  I wasn't looking forward to my 42nd birthday.   But as it was leading up to my birthday, things happened.  Photography changed me life.  I got a promotion at work.  Jeremy and I were in sync like scary crazy good.  By the time my birthday rolled around, I was ready.  After all, my friends kept pointing out...42 is the answer! (Movie thing lol)
In the end, it taught me that it's a number.  I hear that constantly.  But somewhere, somehow, I finally listened...on a spiritual level.  I keep talking about this peace inside.  It's a warm feeling of calm.  I have bouts of panicky or nervousness.  I have to talk myself off that panic level from time to time.  I'm not completely cured of all trauma.  But I am certainly not the broken woman I remember.  I don't recognize myself....and yet, I do.  She's been there all along, waiting to be seen.  She was waiting to really be seen. Every day is an opportunity to learn and grow.  I enjoy the growth I feel.  I enjoy pursing my happiness.  That turned into my life's purpose.  The pursuit of happiness and peace.  It comes in different forms.  It has different times.  But it all pieces together to bring peace in my life.  As I remember Dorothy from Wizard of OZ being told by the Good Witch..."You had the power all along"....so do I, remember...

I had the power...all along.

Thank you, again, my quiet spaces, for taking the time to read my thoughts.  It is never lost on me.