At a different level

I feel at a different level with work.  This week I will have worked the entire workweek.  That's huge for me.  27 is no slouching business for me.  I do feel a little tired but with the help of the electrolytes and coffee, I am doing okay.  And naps.  I love me some naps.  I remember a friend talking about their naps in such an affectionate way.  They worked long hours so I got why they lived for their naps.  Jeremy and I kid around about how as adults, that's what we live for...sleeping in. lol  This weekend we get Lovie 2.  We're also going to San Japan.  We've never been but "L" and DA were happily coaxing us to go.  I left it up to Jeremy as I hadn't really prepared for it.  He decided yes on it.  What else has been going on? Nothing, really.  I've been trying out new dinner ideas to mix it up for the boys.  And planning ahead for movie nights.  Today is my long shift.  So, after work, it's taking the boys out to eat.  Life has been such a beautiful routine.  Yes, I do like mixing things up a bit here and there.  But routine makes me happy.  Consistency makes me happy.  Patterns make me happy.  Okay...the good kind of patterns. lol I hope you are well, my quite spaces.  My head space these days is in much more content mode that I haven't really known what to write.  When I feel like writing, I write.  But don't think I don't appreciate that you still decide to read me.  It will always melt my heart that 1 person does it. Let alone, hundreds.  France, you rock. :)  Seven Sacred Pools by Deuter is on.

What I love

My state is going through some rough times right now.  But what I love about my state is its resilience.  And we have a sense of humor in all of it.  I got off of work and went to Dollar Tree.  An old classmate of mine from high school has a cousin that's going to help victims.  I had been wanting to help but hesitated just giving money.  I wanted something personal.  I got my chance through my old classmate.  I also found towels, old sweaters I wasn't using, a couple of pillows, and blankets.  That's about it.  Not much else happening.  We didn't get hit.  50 more miles and it might've been a different story.  That's what the news keeps saying.  Thank you for any prayers, positive vibes, and thoughts you've been giving us.  It is much appreciated.  We are strong people.  And I love that with all the racial tension that's been diving the country...you see another side to humanity.  You see kindness and generosity, regardless of the color of skin.

Through my eyes

So me

Don't worry.  I took out the seeds.  lol Tea India with Cardamom seeds.  

That kind of day

We were preparing for Hurricane Harvey.  Not too much.  Jeremy and I had a hunch it was just going to be about heavy wind and rain.   But still, it is good to make sure to have lights.  And plenty of water.  It rained overnight.  And it is still raining.  But otherwise, it's just like any other rainy day.  It seemed like a perfect time to make me tea.  I had gone to an International market with Jeremy and friends.  I wanted to buy something.  I ended up buying cardamom seeds and Tea India.  I went off the suggestion of a lovely woman I encountered there.  I wanted an authentic experience with the tea.  Jeremy and I watched a whole season of Rick and Morty.  I've been reading the other part of the time while he watches "Ethan" play a video game.  It's that kind of day.  Nuvole Bianche by Ludovico Einaudi is on. I was having a great conversation the other day when I said the words, aloud, " I'm the happiest I've ever been".  We were talking about my healing and my growth within the last year.  I even made the first step to mending some fences that I haven't even considered in 30ish years.  But where I am in my life, I feel empowered.  I feel that I can stand on my own two feet.  I have Jeremy's support.  But I have myself.  And that is something I had never considered before.  I have myself.  Now, back to reading Ready Player One.  

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What a great perspective

My long day

Dream Twenty by Liquid Mind is on.  I already had my coffee.  I figured I deserve it since it's my long day.  It's always interesting trying to find a new groove.  I make Jeremy coffee like usual.  However, instead of chilling for 5 minutes, he leaves.  We have to account for school traffic now.  I gave him chocolate coffee this morning.  This man is spoiled.  I love it! And then, coffee and breakfast for me.  I don't have hot coffee.  I just do iced coffee now.  And go back for a little power nap while waiting for my morning people to text back.  I love my my morning affirmations to my friends.  It started for someone else to encourage them.  And turned into something else for other people.  Funny how that works.  Thanks, Universe! "Ethan" gets ready for school and I stay up to say bye and hug him.  And then, I officially get up.  It's a little different with MWF.  He goes in later.  And I get up for my permanent assignment.  It makes me beam.  All this makes me beam.  Even the..."Ethan, put your clothes in the dryer!" moments. lol You know some of it was going to be parent frustration.  But in a good way.  If that makes sense.  I'm taking my boys out to eat tonight.  My boys *Heartmelt* I'm not going to want to make anything after I get off work.  And I could've made leftovers but sometimes I'll do that.  And sometimes I'll just take them out to eat.  That's about it.  It's a boring life.  But I love its simplicity and it makes me happy.  I'm not cut out for drama.  Most people aren't but I even less with Epilepsy.  My stress level is down so much, stress is almost non existent.  I had some for a bit with the Bachelorette party.  But that's done now.  And even then, it felt like a first world problem.  Maybe that's why it's harder to blog these days.  I read alot.  I'm reading Ready Player One and Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy.  I'm almost finished with 14th colony.  AP is trying to get me to read a few series but they aren't at the library.  I think he said he had the digitals.  I'll ask him for it once I get through some of these books.  And Jeremy and I watch anime.  We got into The Little Witch for Acadamia.  We do that.  There was Sword Art Online.  I liked all seasons except the last.  My favorite,  Blue Exorcist.  Madoa Magica was really good but really morbid.  Kill La Kill is another one. Still on the fence with that one.  I might start up Santa Clarita Diet or just go straight into Sherlock (the British One).  Plus, our Xbox died so trying to save up to get a new one for us.  Have a sparkling day, my quiet space.  While I may not come on here as much, I do still cherish you dearly.

One of those moms

My lovie...off to college. *sniff*

First days

First days.  I haven't quite done a first day since 5th grade with "Ethan".  I didn't cry.  I did, however, take a couple of pictures.  We had breakfast.  And then he was off to his classes.  Jeremy and I had lunch and talked about the excitement of hearing about his classes.  This is an exciting time for both of us.  I did some grocery shopping and now, time for some chores and binging on one of my shows.  I'm making meatloaf tonight.  Mama is happy.

Here we go

He has settled in

Bachelorette thingy was this weekend. 

 Mama is happy

I can't believe

Officially, tomorrow, we have a college kid.  I can't wrap my mind around that.  I have been waiting years for this moment. I've imagined it.  And now...it's here.  It feels surreal. I can't believe it.  I also got a glimpse of the Eclipse today.  "Claire" napped through it.  She figured she would.  I was able to take a couple of pictures of the Eclipse. "Ethan" moved in this weekend.  I did warn him there would be a least one picture taken tomorrow.  Well...time to get off here and do life.  I hope you have a spectacular day!

Kindness

Kindness is free.  Kindness is a beautiful feeling.  It's harder when you are jaded.  It's harder when you are bitter in this world.  I should know.  While, I would tell people I was okay...I was broken inside.  But now....there are colors again.  There is a rainbow.  There is joy.  I hope today brings you kindness or you bring it to someone.  This world desperately needs it right now.

Catching you up through pictures

Ughs.  I love this dork. lol. He had some team building thing where they wear Hawaiian shirts.  

 I tried. Honestly, I did.

So me

I'm getting better at puzzles

My view at work.  Sighs.  Happiness.

Right?!!!

You're singing it now, aren't you?

 I loved this

For sure

I mean...it's not wrong.

Me, currently.  

Iced coffee for the win

I got this for a gift from "L"

A survivor 's anthem

This is for you. This is for those whom still haven't found their voice.  I am a survivor.  And I'm not just surviving...I'm thriving!!!

Kesha - Rainbow (Official Video)

:)

Kesha - Learn To Let Go (Official Video)

This song is my new anthem

Running around

I have a new schedule.  On Thursdays, I work 7 hours.  Yes, 7.  It's a client I had before so that helped and it's mostly companionship.I took it so that I have the freedom to be able to give "Ethan" lunch money or gas.  And just preparing for an extra mouth to feed.  Or be able to take all 3 of us to the movies or something.  He's moving in very soon.There's a few things going on so it's been a little chaotic.  It's a big reason I haven't been blogging.  Trust me.  I have plenty to say.  Like what happened this weekend is just heartbreaking.  But life has been happening.  I had an evaluation this last Friday too.  It was a very glowing review from  "Claire".  We get along so well.  I love it.  She makes me laugh so much.  And I admire how much she is fighting to not need me.  I also got introduced to a new artist.  And you know how much I love when that happens.  Mr.  "Claire" ..hahahhhhaha (Hey...I gotta find some kind of code name) introduced me to Eydie Gorme.  They made me a CD with all kind of amazing music on it.  Jeremy and I were debating what kind of genre it was.  I had it on for lunch.  He thought it was Jazzhouse.  I thought it was Coffeehouse.  We settled on Lounge music.  He was trying to figure out from the description he was giving it.  So many awesome conversations transpire between Jeremy and I.  We actually ended up talking about American Beauty, the movie (which he has never seen) and somehow talked about dynamics in relationships, impacts we make as significant others, and psyche of attraction.  All in Aquifina time.  My head space is in such a freeing and liberating state these days.  I would say in the past I had good heads space but what I didn't figure in was the speed bumps I would have to experience.  Life isn't Zen and as much as I wanted it to be, that's not a very healthy or realistic view.  Now, I do my best to prepare for that speed bump.  I rationalize now.  And it's such an amazing feeling using this bright and beautiful brain of mine to rationalize things.  It's a beautiful feeling to argue points that I have.  MY VOICE is enough.  It's more than enough.  We're in a wedding so we have been dealing with that stuff too. I just thought I would at least blog an entry since I've been so busy and absent.  I hope you have a sensational Monday.    Dream Thirty from Liquid Mind is on.

It was bound to happen

Given my previous years on yesterday, it was actually a better day.  However, a seizure was bound to happen.  Coffee with CC was on the agenda.  Past that, we didn't have one.  I spent it with my nephew and nieces.  At one point, I had a claustrophobic moment that wasn't helping me.  But even then, I was better.  I didn't have to go to therapy this year to do a check in.   And the entire day I had people for me.  Either through texts or Facebook.  Yesterday has passed.  Gotta go and get ready for work.