Transported in pictures

I bought a new necklace.  It's the Tardis in Starry Night.  

Nom Nom Nom

Transported

I had to send this to my friend that loves Batman.  

Transported

For better or worse, you can be transported somewhere.  Your mind knows you're there.  But the emotional trigger reminds you of something else.  I was transported somewhere yesterday.  I went to coffee with a friend but since she grew up in Europe, she has had a difference experience with coffee.  Not your Starbucks vibe.  She found a beautiful cafe.  We were transported there.  Since I have had my own experience living in Europe, I could relate.  It was a beautiful experience.  Sometimes, being transported is not the most pleasant thing.  Before I knew how to control the triggers, I would get transported emotionally to very dark times in my life.  It doesn't mean that memories or things or places or people don't have the power to trigger.  It just means I have found a way to disconnect the trigger.  I have found the disconnect to the power of that trigger.  I recognized that later as Jeremy and I watched BladeRunner.  We had wanted to refresh our memory again on that movie since we plan to go see the new one.  And there was a visual that had the power to trigger.  It was the stick figure men.  I felt my blood rush over me.  I forgot for a few seconds where in reality I was.  But in the next few seconds, I had talked myself through it.  Confidence.  Belief in myself.  What a beautiful feeling.  Another big step was stepping outside my comfort zone and making a dish without any real recipe.  It was a Greek dish, no less.  Something I have not made before.  It was such a gratifying feeling.  And the faces of the guys.  I love that I am exploring different culinary avenues.  I want to make enchiladas next.  And also, Indian Butter Chicken.  After the Rain by Kevin Kern is on.  It's a powerful feeling being transported. 

Jean Webster

IT ISN'T THE GREAT BIG PLEASURES THAT COUNT THE MOST; IT'S MAKING A GREAT DEAL OUT OF THE LITTLE ONES...

Jean Webster

It kind of follows the other quote I liked.  What I got out of this quote was finding the magic in the smaller things.  I don't necessarily have an extraordinary life by any standards.  I am not on a tv show.  I don't hold office.  I haven't written a book.  Yet, when I look at my life...I see an extraordinary life so far.  I thrived under crazy circumstances.  I hadn't even realized until recently how extraordinary that I still had a life to life.  My life has played out like a Lifetime movie.  And now it plays out like a Hallmark Channel. Or maybe like an OWN show.  It has depth.  It has meaning.  I fill my life with meaning.  Even if it's in small arenas.  It's why I make a big difference to people.  So making a great deal out of the little ones means seeing the magic in even the small parts of life.  Blogging.  Working.  Family time.  Listening to music.  Doing my steps.  Hanging out with friends.  Sleeping.  What I wear to work or when I'm off work.  Sounds trivial.  But for me, it means something.  For me, I want to leave each day with meaning.  Even if it's small.  A Sublime Place from Erik Wollo is playing.  

Insight

Calming Insight of Ourselves by Dean Evenson is on.  How fitting.  I love quotes.  And on Mother's Day I was gifted with a box of them.  I don't change them every day.  I don't always use them for inspiration on blogging.  But they are there for insight.  Today's is SOMETIMES, THE BEST WAY TO MAKE A BIG DIFFERENCE IS ADDING UP LOTS OF SMALL ONES
-Queen Rania Al Abdullah of Jordan.

That is a great insight.  Sometimes, when I was worried about the positive impact I was making on the world, I forgot to remind myself or point out, it could be one person at a time, one being at a time.  It didn't even have to be human.  It could be an animal.  It could be the environment.  Those small differences can add up to a big difference.  Perhaps, in a small way, you reading this, makes a a difference.  Last night, Jeremy and I were watching an Anime.  Granted, it has a whimsical side and almost an ideological sense to it.  But still, there we are finishing up the two seasons.  It's about a witch.  She doesn't come from a witch family.  But she wants to be a witch.  On the second to the last episode, she meets her idol.  Only it's not in that wonderful way.  It's more of identity revealed and could feel like betrayal.  The part that stuck with me was the magic that happened.  Positive and negative energy were being changed into energy.  I was crying, of course.  Jeremy is the one that actually found this anime.  That makes me smile more.  The name of the anime is Little Witch Academia.  We also had a great dinner conversation with "Ethan".  We were discussing accuracy in social media.  It's on a essay he has to do.  Insight is truly valuable.  You learn something about yourself in the process.  You learn something about the world.  Today, that word will be on the brain.    So is making a big difference with little ones.    I hope you have a sparkling day.  Time for coffee with CC and errands.

Retrying things with confidence

Floating meadows from David and Steve Gordon is on.  That was something that made me smile as Jeremy and I were enjoying dinner with our friends.  There is a card game that I have been familiar with over the years but I didn't really understand it. I would say I didn't like it.  But really, I said that because it confused me too much.  I hadn't really given myself the chance to know if I liked it or not.  So, last night after what can only be described as Restaurant style dinner. we played Hand and Foot.  What do you know? I like it.  In fact, my team won.  I tried not to dismiss myself when I apologized in advance for being rusty.  But I didn't want to dismiss my skills.  I try to be very aware of not doing that.  Retrying things with confidence has been such a cathartic experience.  What else? I've been on a Mediterranean kick.  "Ethan" requested a new Tortellini dish.  So I created one.  Some of it is a recipe.  And some of it is my own.  The boys loved it.  I wish I could tell you more but I don't have much to write.  We have a wedding next month we are in.  I'm trying to buy a new console for us.  I am constantly looking up new recipes.  I work.  I do housewifey things.  I go to coffee with friends.  We hang out with friends.  We chill at home.  It's a chill life.  I love it!

Mary Anne Radmacher

AS WE WORK TO CREATE LIGHT FOR OTHERS, WE NATURALLY LIGHT OUR OWN WAY

-Mary Anne Radmacher

I like this quote.  It reminds me of the quote about surrounding yourself with positive people.  I've often believed that there is a physical and mental manifestation of someone's energy.  That "positive" energy...That "light" bleeds unto you if you are a positive light for others.  Within the last month we have seen the worst of humanity.  But within the last two weeks, we have also seen the best of humanity.  I hope that us as individuals find a way to be the light for others.  It helps our well being in the end.  It breaks my heart...and in ways, on an intellectual level, see a person rationalize hate.  I can't wrap myself around the fact someone will utilize a rationale to their advantage to disparage a group they see as inferior to them.  It starts with a kind gesture.  I hope to be able to be a light for others today.  And in turn, I will beam that light within.  It could be why I finally found an inner peace to some of my demons, insecurities, and angers of life.  They still exist.  But I've learned to live with them, exist with them, acknowledge them, and cope with them.  Sometimes I can change them.  Sometimes, I cannot.  Either way, I have the power of their power.  Not the other way around.  Why? Because that natural light, that inner peace...is a goal...a future that I wish to have.  And I found it.

The art of sleeping in

The art of sleeping in is what I like to call my Tuesday groove.  My MWF assignment's other caregiver  was out  so I had been filling in on Tuesdays.  I did this on this last Tuesday and the Tuesday before that. I needed a break today.  I can sleep in on Thursdays but to a point.  There is a groove now in place for mornings.  I like seeing Jeremy off as usual.  But now it's also seeing "Ethan" off now.  I even told him to wake me up before he goes.  When he hadn't he told me I looked so comfortable sleeping he didn't want to wake me up.  I said... I was but that it was worth it to me to see him off.  I have lunch with Jeremy today.  I have a couple of errands.  I have grocery shopping to do.  I bit the bullet on the Xbox 1.  I put it on Layaway.  Which means I need to sell the Xbox 360 games.  Which is one of my errands today.  I may see CC later today.  I love that I have my time with my girls.  I got to see SADF.  Next weekend is Dear One time.  Of course, I usually have my L time.  And because of Tuesday I hadn't had coffee with CC.  Or lunch with a classmate friend, CN that I see here and there.  I used to see this time for myself as being selfish or not being able to carve time for myself because I didn't feel worth it.  What a difference head space makes.  I feel I contribute greatly now.  Whether financially or with the house.  Between my part time job and housework, it's like having a full time job. lol I refuse to vacuum.  So Jeremy took that off my hands.  Yah, team work! And the three of us keep up with getting the trash out into the garage where Jeremy and I take it out on Trash days.  When life changes you adjust to the new normal.  This "new groove" that we have down....it feels good.

San Japan pictures

I found a lot of cosplayers from Mortal Kombat

Doctor Who!!

Tardis!!!

Inside the Tardis!

I'm Pickle Rick!!

The shirt lights up!! and doesn't trigger me!!

This was a friend of a friend of mine, I found out

 $10! One of the shirts I got

Nice cosplaying!

More Mortal Kombat!

Yup. You guessed. Mortal Kombat.  They didn't know each other.  Except for a couple of them

Kiki!

Now, it's our profile pic

Yup..MK

MK

Another shirt!

Cute pic

I'm silly

Super silly

You know me with Beauty and the Beaust

I was so happy to give blood.  I had donated earlier in the week.  But this also made my day.  My family and friends were patient with me doing this.  They rock.

Doctor Who

Sapphire from Steven Universe

SubZero from MK! One of my favorites

So cute!! Doctor Who Fans United

One of my friends.  She loves Doctor Who as much as I do!

Hot STuff!!

Too cute

You know me and Superman 

A lot of people were playing

Poison Ivy

I was so excited about this shirt!!

Fidget Spinner lol

One of my favorites of MK

My favorite Tardis picture!

I'm inside!!!

Kimura.  I let DA pick for me

Great place!

I had a blast!! 

Sakura from Naruto

The ones I took pictures of I knew the characters.  I used to watch Naruto so I recognized her right away

San Japan

It felt like Comic Con. Only it was all about Anime.  I needed help from Lovie 2 and Jeremy on who was what.  I was on a quest for a Doctor Who necklace.  I didn't find one.  I ended up with something better.  There was a shirt that would activate with sound with lights.  And they didn't affect me.  I also go to donate blood.  But there was bonus. I found out after saying yes to donating.  Doctor Who fans Unite were sponsoring the drive.  I got to take pictures inside the Tardis! and with a Doctor Who Cosplay guy.  They were the best Tardis pictures ever!!! I ended up going nuts on buying t-shirts instead.  I worked today and filled in for the other caregiver.  She was still out.  I rescheduled my lunch with Jeremy for next week.  That's about it.  I just took a nap.  It was awesome.  I think it's time for some Law and Order:Criminal Intent .S&M by Rihanna is on.