Monday, September 29, 2014
Don't stop believing
I kinda need that phrase right now. I still believe. My dream is just right there. This is the test to pass through. It's the most difficult. I feel defeated right now. I feel like all my hard work, sweat, tears, and blood just didn't go anywhere. I haven't given up. I have perspective still. But I can't lie. Behind the smile...behind my laugh...I feel defeated...and confused. I am puzzled by all this. I guess that's normal. So here I am...starting over again....again...It's not like I haven't had the doubt of my intelligence before. But one formality does not determine my intelligence. And good thing I know that. I usually have some philosophical thing going. Today...Sadly, I do not. I won't give up....I won't. But I need a vacation from all this. I want a vacation from my own thoughts. Because sometimes it's those thoughts that get me trouble. Not any crazy thoughts like harming myself...no no no no. But I feel lost. I feel a sense of my self confidence gone. I'm not sure how to get it back. So...maybe I will bring into song....Don't stop believing...
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