Monday, August 22, 2016
Focus
What a difference a year can make. I was looking at the memories thing. I took a big leap and did a transformation today. I became art, so to speak. I became a story. A year ago. I regret a lot. And then, I don't. I, myself, became a more healed person doing my journey. It may not be the journey that anyone can understand or care to. And maybe, somewhere I found out how much I need to love myself. My nature is to give give give give. Maybe I'm tired of giving. Maybe I need to just take. And I can't say that with a straight face. Sighs. It's not my nature. Sometimes I envy those who are selfish. Is that weird? I don't apologize for the person I am. But sometimes, my compassion is what gets me in my messes in life. Sometimes....I care too much. There's more that I share here sometimes than I am with any one person. It's hard to explain. At least it's not pain any more that I am holding back. It's decisions I've made. It's living with my rewards and my consequences. It's dealing with good and bad. I guess I had so much good that I need a little bad. And considering how bad things get with people...I've got first world status. But I'm not in Zen. I'm happy. But I'm not in Zen. And maybe I need that. To learn how to handle that life is a rollercoaster. Better get ready for work. Have a good day. I am considering stopping my blog.
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