To be for others

The Elders Scrolls V Skyrim Original Game soundtrack by Jeremy Souele is on.  My gamer friends would appreciate that! I've had a couple of them and Jeremy suggest this game.  However, I like console better and I like two player or multiplayer.  I digress.   Today, I got a text from a friend that made me think....to be for others.  I imagined how our actions helped others be the best version of themselves.  How us, as support systems helped others to fuction.  I thought of that...and I smiled.  I have a friend dealing with a very important meeting.  I have another that has a job that requires the kind of patience and strength that only few have.  I have another that is dealing with divorce about many years and full time parenting at this point.  And that is just a handful that need ..guidance?insight? feedback? My take? My voice of reason? I don't know if if have a word for it yet, really.  I got more sleep. It seemed my body was more tired than I let on.  I live for those, they're not even naps...just a way to give my body permission to be still.  Almost a version of meditation for me? Sometimes music is on.  Sometimes it's not.  Sometimes I'm watching something.  Sometimes I am actually sleeping.  My thoughts slow down.  I'm sometimes somewhere else.  I'm sometimes still right there but truly see my present state.  I hope you get to be for others.  I hope there are others that depend on you.  Personally, it's a good feeling.  I love the feeling.  That others depend on me. Whether for insight or for that certain positive energy to get them through.  It's why I love my job.  To be for others...I hope you get the chance to be for others.....If not.  I hope you find a way. Because, I have those that I seek out when the sun doesn't set right.  And instead of being that beautiful Unicorn that I am, I just feel like a horse that stabs.  That's when I depend on them to remind me that I have a sparkle in me.  I am a badass.  I am amazing.  I am, actually.  The insane badass things that I do.  That includes wife.  Dork face has trouble saying them.  But his actions remind me how grateful and happy he is to be my husband.  When I am in that dark place, the beautiful words I need more.  When I am back to normal, they're nice...but not necessary.  I am happy I am in a better head space to say that.  Now, to get my day going.  I have a big week ahead of me next week.  I am excited and nervous about my new assignment.