Love letter to Jeremy

I wasn't comfortable to do the spouse challenge.  But I am comfortable to write a letter to Jeremy.  Go figure

My love,

Our love story is quite interesting.  I don't think we ever imagined we would be here, together like this.  We have always had chemistry.  I am proud of the people we are and did not act on it.  We both had people we love.  It wasn't our style.  All the more reason when I became a bridesmaid.  lol That will never get old saying.  It always sounds so salacious but it's boring.  So friends we shall be, we thought.  I did my thing. You did yours.  You got married.  I got married.  I got divorced.  I was probably trying to figure out what love was supposed to look like since I had a very warped idea.  Thanks to Javier.  My relationships didn't make sense.  My past does have some lifetime moments because Brad and Woody.  Two very disturbed men that need counseling, I imagine.  But I gravitated to them, in part because I didn't see the value of myself.  I'm attractive outside.  But it's the beautiful person I am inside that makes me beautiful.  It's what makes me sparkle.  It's why you love me.  Your quiet stoic way understands the exquisite woman I am that loves with compassion.  Whether you're my client, my friend, or my love...I give you my all.  I give you my sparkle.  You get to see the good, bad, and the Jess.  You love me despite myself....and because of myself.  I want to make a positive impact on the world.  Yes.  But with you, I just want to be there in the space with you.  Sometimes in quietness.  I couldn't imagine not talking to you.  And there are times when we are in sheer quiet for hours.  Sometimes just snuggling or holding.  Sometimes other things lol.  Sometimes doing our own things, but doing it together.  or our adventures.  Sometimes with friends.  Sometimes with just us two.  I love our friendship.  You excite me.  Physically, emotionally, and intellectually.  You also infuriate, frustrate and hurt me.  But we work through it because our love is fierce and intense...and quiet and safe....all at the same time.  I never could quite get this duel.  And now...now I understand.  Every day, we choose each other.  Every day we choose to come back to each other.  Every day we make each other a priority.  Every day we work on our marriage and try making it stronger.  I love you, Jeremy.  It scares me to be this vulnerable.  But with you, I feel safe.  So while it scares me to be this vulnerable....I'm glad you are on the receiving end.  And I'm honored I get to be the one you turn to.  Call it soulmate...I just know...I was made for you.  And you were made for me.  We complement each other.  The idea of us makes others happy and look towards as a reference.  I guess it's why I am honest and authentic as much about our unhappiness just as much as the happy.  Will I divulge every detail? No.  It's nobody's business.  But I won't hide when things aren't Zen.  We grumbled with each other last night.  Like a normal couple.  I gave you space.  You showed remorse by you thanking me for getting dinner and putting dishes away.  We held each other while watching Leverage.  And of course, Thursday night.  And then, we were okay.  I am the best thing to ever happen to you.  You've said that.  You certainly know you are the best thing to ever happen to me.
So as you work.  A job I am very proud of you having....I get ready to go to my job.  A job I am proud of having and you are proud of me having...We'll come home.  I'll make dinner.  And enjoy the Friday.  I love you, Jeremy.  I have strange quirks about plastering it on Facebook with a challenge.  And yet, in the quiet spaces...I have followers or readers...who will know....just how much we love, respect, and admire each other.