Jeapordy kind of thing

Yesterday, I really too notice of the quotes before the Criminal minds episodes.  I was excited to be introduced to a new name regarding quotes.  His name is Ralph Waldo Emerson.  One of his quotes is" In order to learn important lessons in life, one must each day, surmount fear.  It struck a chord in me because I lived in fear for 20 years.  But of what, really? It was an invisible sense.  It was a distorted sense.  It made it no less valid.  Someone had implanted that idea to me. And for a lack of a better word, brainwashed me into thinking it was true.  And when you are already weak in some ways from self esteem...it doesn't help.  I fought myself constantly on my self esteem.  I imagine many girls did.  I lived in a boy's world for most of my childhood to adult life.  Being more friends with women is a recent enough phenomena.  I'd say it's been 10 years.  Which in the grand scheme of things, is recent.  My best friends were usually guys.  I've had girl best friends but even they had the same type of personality as me.  They got along better with guys.  I digress.  Every day, there is something to overcome.  We have stress in life.  Some, more than others.  It just made me wonder the fears we tell others.  And the fear we barely can tell ourselves.  And every day, we work on them.  We try to overcome them.  Some are external factors of things...or people, sexually, emotional, or physically.  Other times, it's us we have to overcome our fear over.  If that makes sense.  The second quote that also stuck with me actually came from a fictional character.  I was talking about it with Jeremy and my execution of my words kinda goofed.  It sounded like I was asking him if he knew Sherlock Holmes.  I said it gave new meaning...No shit, Sherlock lol.  So I restarted my line of thought.  And what it was, more like a question.  Is it a philosopher or a writer than necessarily brings a quote.  And the explanation or pointing out that Jeremy said is more on popularization.  His example was on a fictional character. Captain Picard of the Enterprise.  "Make it so".  (Nerd gasm) (Nerd gasm because I love Star Trek.  My favorite Series the the Next Generation.  My favorite characters were Picard and Data.  I met Roddenberry's wife (Counselor Troy's mom).  I remember meeting some other ones but my conversation with her just stuck with me all my life. Not necessarily the specifics of the conversation. My memory is shot for a lot of my past.  Hazard of having Epilepsy.  More on the feeling inside.  Like an emotional photograph, if that makes sense.    I was in 9th grade at the time.  I had gone with a fellow trekkie friend of mine.  I even got on the news that night.  They had noticed my brief conversation with her.  Tangent.  Geez.  You're used to them by now.  Back to the conversation.  Sherlock Holmes has a quote as well that struck a chord even more.  It is a capital mistake to theorize before one has data.  Insensibly, one begins to twist facts to suit theories, instead of theories to suite facts.  Enter politics.  Or religious organizations sometimes.  Not all do that but it;s where my train of thought went.  Sighs.  I just got a call from the manager.  It was not good news.  My patience is limited.  Jeremy and I talked last night that if they weren't coming today, it was time for him to lay down the law.  I don't have the energy to yell.  But I am tired of this waiting.  I think I have waited long enough.  Be more upfront on how long it's going to take.  I could tell that the manager was trying to excuse that these things happen.  I stopped him and told him I needed to talk to Jeremy about options.  I gave Jeremy the number.  And he's taking care of it.  See, here's an interesting thing about us. Our dynamic with patience.  He understands my philosophy on leeway.  We're flexible on a lot of things.  So by the time, I feel like wanting to yell....it's time for Jeremy to step in.  And does he ever! Blogging does help me feel better about the disappointment.  I waited for Friday.  I confirmed that we were still doing both vinyl and flooring on Wednesday.  No.  I'm not being unrealistic here.  If I had known this vinyl would be such a hassle, we could have gone to Home Depot or Lowe's.  Which might just still happen.  But I still have flooring coming still.  So there is that.  Time to process the frustration and not transition it into anger.  It can easily.  But every day, I work on that.  I'm like the Hulk lol.  Just a prettier version lol I actually have anger issues.  But I've managed to diffuse my emotions from escalating.  Not without help.  Jeremy has been instrumental on helping with that.  Not always how I like it, but how I needed it.  And I trusted him.  I always have.  And when I changed my mindset on things and my approach with him...that interaction changed too.  We constructively critique each other.  We give each other constructive feedback.  That's not always easy to take.  But we step back and process the information.  Stepping back has been amazing to do.  It allows me the time to diffuse my emotional aspect and think more logically.  Yah, me! Men of Honor from Randy Edelman is on.  I also was introduced to a new quotes website.  I love Word Porn.  But there is now Write Vibe that has great quotes.  And since we were on a quotes vibe...I made one of my own.  I'll take Quotes for $100, Alex.  It's a Jeapordy kind of thing.  I'd say 50 points for Gryffindor but I'm Hufflepuff.  Ah...Why not?...50 points for Gryffindor.  I'm waiting for my Hufflepuff stockings to come in.  Gotta love my tangents. Squirrel!

Time can either warm or freeze a heart.
 Memories are the key to that direction
Intent holds the glue.
Consistency helps that direction.
Communication helps one find the key to all that