Sanctuary

That seemed like the theme yesterday.  Jeremy had to go to work late so I got to spend the morning and early afternoon with him.  That was a beautiful surprise.  That man never ceases to amaze me. Yesterday was a breakaway from our routine.  But I liked it.  And I have to recognize that life happens.  There will be zig zags and things that make one break away from routine.  I just happen to like routine.  It gives me peace of mind.  Garden Lullaby by Gary Stadler is on.  I had lunch with him too.  I had a Caprese sandwich.  It's vegetarian but it was so yummy!!! This home chaos threw me off on my regular diet routine too.  I was drinking too much coke for my own good.  Back to water.  I got peace of mind from having my sanctuary back.  Sanctuary may look different.  But the end result is the same.  Where you feel safe. Whether it's a person, or a place.  Or both.  I had slowed down on helping people because I didn't have my sanctuary.  It was affecting my psyche.  But I recognized that, and adjusted accordingly.  Then, out of the blue, Ysun reached out and needed to talk.  They were stressed about work and about a moving.  They knew the one person that could help them talk through the stress was me.  They were right.  Now, here's something to know about Ysun.  We go way back.  We have butted heads in the past.  When I had a confrontational side to me in the past, Ysun and I couldn't see eye to eye for a lot of things.  But as we video chatted yesterday, it registered....this almost seemed like a Unicorn sighting.  I never, in my wildest dreams thought I would be talking with Ysun.  Let alone talk face to face, so to speak.  We drank Moscato together.  We even shed a tear or two together over thinking about a friend that had passed. And they told me they felt a non judgmental zone.  They felt safe with me.  I was a sanctuary.  Jeremy went into work in the afternoon.  So I decided to reach out to SADF and see if we could have dinner.  They were available.  I never like doing things last minute.  But I decided to ask anyways. They needed a few hours to figure their scheduling for other things and projects.  But after a couple of hours, I had a dinner date! I made dinner.  I loved the presentation of it all.  I was cooking in my new kitchen.  Originally, SADF was coming by to pick up some books I found that suited them more than me.  But I thought...dinner too! We had a beautiful evening talking about the day.  And things....some philosophical things... some sentimental.  Some about relationships.  Some about our inner journey.  Some about lessons we have learned.  I also shared my happiness of Ysun and I talking earlier that day.  And we also talked about being happy or sad for someone else.  One may not always agree on how someone conducts their journey to happiness.  But the best way to support is to be there for someone.  Interject concerns.  But after that....you have to walk side by side with support...and let someone have their journey.  That is a difficult thing to do for me.  But at least I recognize that.  And then just be a sanctuary.  Having my home back means I can be a sanctuary for people.  And that makes me happy.  I can get back to writing my story.  I can start Book 3 of Harry Potter.  I can figure out more recipes.  I can color.  Jeremy and I decided on Starry Night for the piece so I'll be getting that soon.  So...I hope I provide that sanctuary for you....with my words.  I hope I provide some comfort.  My quiet spaces...you help me...just as much as I might help you.  I have a safe place to share my thoughts.  I used to fear the vulnerability with not knowing whom read my blog.  Now, I find it a beautiful thing.  So...today, it might be interesting to think where your sanctuary is.  In the meant time, enjoy the pics and the word porn.