Same as it never was

There is something to be said about my tenacity.  I got the bylaws.  I am relentless on things.  I was already stubborn on my own.  However, being with Jeremy turned me into a relentless person.  I got that from him! I am in reorganization mode.  I'll have to move the furniture when repairs come through.  But I can do other projects with reorganizing.  I even think the fun trip to the farmers market and bookstore really recharged.  Thank you, "L".  I appreciate how she, without questions just kinda helped me along with my storm transition, my working on things with myself.  She's at least younger than me by 10 years but our age doesn't seem to affect our friendship.  I suppose it helps I don't act my age. And she is very mature for her age.  So it balances out.  Same as it never was was the antique store for Ghost Whisperer, which is one of my favorite shows, ever.  Charmed would be another one.  But in the show Same as it never was a great way to see things.  It's the same things.  But all had a story to tell differently.  It's like the place is going through a transition.  When we got the place as a wedding present, I wasn't sure how long we were staying.  It was just to scale down from our 3 bedroom because the kids were no longer living with us.  It was small and quaint.  It fit us.  It wasn't until we had to invest in a new AC unit that I did actually make roots and started decorating the place.  Unfortunately, my neighbor and at the time, friend got a little too ahead of herself on the Operation Revamp the Kearneys place.  We butted heads after a bit.  There's more to the story.  There is something to know about me.  Don't mess with my health, don't mess with my marriage, and don't mess with my family.  If I still let you stick around after you have messed up at least 2 or 3 times from that, we're done.  I gave too many chances.  And she messed with my family.  She had opinions about how I should treat Jeremy but she never really had a chance of me actually listening to her.  I had a squirrel moment.  Back to home.  My home is my sanctuary.  I did turn into a bit of a hermit. I do errands.  I do hang out with friends. (Usually during the day) (If it's at night, they are wonderful enough to drive).  But I like home.  I read alot.  I look up things on Pinterest.  I work on my story.  I do chores.  I also have Therapist Friend time.  So I do alot with my day.  Same as it never was almost seems like a great mantra of sorts.  Things look the same on the outside sometimes.  But many times, when a change occurs...it's never really like before.  It can't be.  There was change.  Courage of the Wind by David Lanz is on.  I feel better that there is progress.  I didn't want to sit on this, simply because I was waiting for someone else.  I'm a kicka$$ personal assistant.  I don't like to sit idle.  And when I finally do, it's usually to recharge....in order to get back to not being idle.  I have learned the importance of recharging and sitting still has a productive side to it.  I miss working.  But I don't miss the stress that customer service jobs put on me.  Especially when I would be sick.  And being out of the workforce for 5 years now doesn't bode well for me.  In a year or two it will be a moot point.  So until then, just do my thing. Jeremy seems to be happy anyways.  I am his sanctuary.  And that's all that matters.