Some things

At this moment I am actually listening to a podcast called Talk Nerdy to me.  I love listening to this woman about very compelling things. Yet, it's very personal as well.  Her radio voice is phenomenal.  It's the 100th episode right now. Some other things that kinda changed or just new as my new normal.  Thanks to my friendship with "D" I am more mindful of organic products.  We bought a spiralizer.  I will be making zucchini spaghetti tonight.  No carbs! It's really interesting to experience this new way of thinking of things with my health.  I also like the idea of virtual walking trails.  I am getting more cardio just by the kids being around.  3 adults means human jungle gym!!! I've noticed that while I have lost weight (20-25, I think...Last time I checked 20). It's inches that I feel gone.  I feel like I have a whole new wardrobe as I am getting back into clothes I hadn't even put on for years.  I wore a size small blouse the other day!!!!! Off and on I do yoga.  I really should get back into yoga.  It helped center me.  And while this sounds funny, with all this overall change of things to become the new normal...I incorporated silly as a routine.  Last night I fulfilled a silly dream if you will by having a light saber fight with Jeremy.  I know if you saw on Facebook I had a light saber fight with him with the Unicorn a friend got me.  But this time we were having a light saber fight.  It was amazing. And we even recorded it.  Some things changed in me.  I am changed. I hope for the better.  Sometimes things or people make life changing moments or game changers that make you think on things.  And so going forward I am self aware of my own evolution of learning.  Not just for my mind.  For my soul.  For my body.  For everything.  My hair too.  I am kinda obsessed on the purple and pink.  I don't know if I just want to keep like this for the rest of my life lol.  I probably can't but I gotta say.  I love my hair like this.  I have this confident sassafrass mode that isn't just from my looks.  It's about what I represent.  Most of all, the one part that I always felt lacked. My intelligence.  My hair gives me the confidence to accept that I am an intelligent woman.  After all...a man like Jeremy would want a sassafrass beautiful and intelligent woman by his side.  There you go.  Enter me Woot.  You can't imagine my happiness of every day waking up to feeling this confidence.  I do have my self doubt moments.  I know they will be there.  Life...or people.  But I'll dust myself and get up again.  Because I am Queen Sparkles.